hmmmm...
Guess how I'm doing?
1. I never see Betty any more. Shes busy...and we're not the same as we used to be. We never will be...we've talked about it.
Because "I won"
And I've never been so guilty in my life.
2. Ethel.....is busy. And, she doesn't understand.
3. Most of my friends I can actually talk to....are either gone, or getting smashed out of their brains this weekend. Because thats what they do....they're cool like that.
4. Jughead is busy and stressed...and his family is fucked up. I never feel like talking to him either, because I don't want to be a problem.
But I'm having problems... a lot of them. And I've only recently become stressed out because I've stopped caring about how fucked up Juggie's family is (because that's not my problem)....I only have so much worry....and I need to worry about myself for a change.
It seems that I can't talk to any of my friends about my real problems....the only person I could ever talk to about them was....
5. Archie....And I miss Archie. A lot. He's busy and fucked up because his father doesn't like Cheryl...he wants to talk to me...like we used to.
Because he was one of my best friends...and now I can never go back to that.
He's not the same person most of the time any more, and we can't go back to caring about each other too much.
On the positive side...
I'm getting a 90%, a 93%, a 96% and a 99% on my next report card.
Only my parents care. Everyone else expects me to do that well.
I am offically getting labeled as "the best"
I hate that, because theres nowhere to go but down now.
And I know that, this time, my problems just won't "go away"....they usually do
But I can't just sleep these off.
I've been so immersed into Juggie's world of problems because I feel obligated to be. He has no one else to talk to, and at least I can talk to my parents.
KNow what my mum said?
"No more about his family. That can be fixed later. More about you"
My mum doesn't think I'm too much, or a burden. Ever. She's so shocked whnever I mention how much easier Juggie's life will be next year, when I'm not there.
^^^^^
That one hurts. She was especially shocked when I told her that he agrees with that statement...and it wasn't until she got shocked that I realised how much that bothered me.
I'm a chore
I'm a disraction
I'm a burden
I'm high maintinence
I take up too much of his time
I'm controlling
I'm a diva
I'm a bitch
I just want to roll into a corner and hide forever.
1. I never see Betty any more. Shes busy...and we're not the same as we used to be. We never will be...we've talked about it.
Because "I won"
And I've never been so guilty in my life.
2. Ethel.....is busy. And, she doesn't understand.
3. Most of my friends I can actually talk to....are either gone, or getting smashed out of their brains this weekend. Because thats what they do....they're cool like that.
4. Jughead is busy and stressed...and his family is fucked up. I never feel like talking to him either, because I don't want to be a problem.
But I'm having problems... a lot of them. And I've only recently become stressed out because I've stopped caring about how fucked up Juggie's family is (because that's not my problem)....I only have so much worry....and I need to worry about myself for a change.
It seems that I can't talk to any of my friends about my real problems....the only person I could ever talk to about them was....
5. Archie....And I miss Archie. A lot. He's busy and fucked up because his father doesn't like Cheryl...he wants to talk to me...like we used to.
Because he was one of my best friends...and now I can never go back to that.
He's not the same person most of the time any more, and we can't go back to caring about each other too much.
On the positive side...
I'm getting a 90%, a 93%, a 96% and a 99% on my next report card.
Only my parents care. Everyone else expects me to do that well.
I am offically getting labeled as "the best"
I hate that, because theres nowhere to go but down now.
And I know that, this time, my problems just won't "go away"....they usually do
But I can't just sleep these off.
I've been so immersed into Juggie's world of problems because I feel obligated to be. He has no one else to talk to, and at least I can talk to my parents.
KNow what my mum said?
"No more about his family. That can be fixed later. More about you"
My mum doesn't think I'm too much, or a burden. Ever. She's so shocked whnever I mention how much easier Juggie's life will be next year, when I'm not there.
^^^^^
That one hurts. She was especially shocked when I told her that he agrees with that statement...and it wasn't until she got shocked that I realised how much that bothered me.
I'm a chore
I'm a disraction
I'm a burden
I'm high maintinence
I take up too much of his time
I'm controlling
I'm a diva
I'm a bitch
I just want to roll into a corner and hide forever.