Soap in a foutain...
It has been quite a while since I REALLY updated my journal. I guess there are just some times and events in my life that I don't want to remember so why keep record of it? For the most part, I'd say I'm pretty damn happy considering the circumstances. I've been having so much fun with Chelsea and all the girls. It's been awesome. Thanks girls! We've been having fun going out... going to Dangerway ;).... FYE! "Hi I'm Chelsea!" There are of course other parts of my life that suck. Still waiting to hear from the banks... school is pretty good. I like all of my classes. My sports psych is awesome seeing as though I didn't have to buy ANY books, have NO homework, I know a lot of people, and it's something I am interested in and can really relate. I was clenaing out my old room today and found myself throwing away a LOT of things that used to be so sentimental. Part of me just wants to throw away everything in my past and start over. I want to leave aall of the pain and hurt behind. I want to forget about everyone who has hurt me and never really cared. I know it's probably not the right attitude to have, but I'm just so hurt that all I feel like doing is running away and giving up. I know I won't because I'm not a quitter, but sometimes when you don't have the ones closest to you who know you the best and you love the most aren't there for you, it makes things kind of tough. All I need is support from those people and I'm not getting it. So I'm discouraged. Let's have a cow.
A friend sent this to me today that I thought meant a lot. One of those letters that go around to everyone. Have a read...
"What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there? What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness? What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a diffrerence in my life. I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you."
A friend sent this to me today that I thought meant a lot. One of those letters that go around to everyone. Have a read...
"What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there? What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness? What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a diffrerence in my life. I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you."