Hicks, horses, and cows...
Been a while since the last update. I have done so much since then! Starting with LA...
I had such a great time. A lot more fun than I had expected. The first night I got there, I saw an enzo within 25 minutes of being there. Pulled over in a red zone just to hear it. We got to Mike and Morgan's apartment and I started playing video games with Angelo. We ended up talking all night long. I learned alot and was very intrigued by him. That night, Angelo, Jesse, and I stayed up until about 5:30am just laughing non-stop. Then, everyone in Morgan and Mike's room were laughing and goofing off. I ended up in between Mike and Morgan's bed about sun rise time. The next day we drove around, went to the beach, saw Ozzy Osbourne's house, explored an old antique mansion, went to Starbucks, of course, then partied later that night. Morgan and I were the most... intoxicated. It was crazy! We stayed up all night, played music, talked, smoked cigars... it was unbelievable. Celebrated Jeff's birthday at 12:00 until 6:00am. The next morning, I woke up, made breakfast for all the guys (and everyone else who slept over). The day flew by pretty quick. Morgan had his show that night. It was so much fun! I saw Kyle and had a long conversation with him. It was really interesting. There is still that attraction there which was rather shocking to me. But it wawsn't even about that. It was more of a reunion, update thing. He told me that I was the only ex-girlfriend he was on good terms with. Then he started asking me about why girls tease and don't give in and how he just wants someone to love so bad. With Kyle, you have to be blunt and straight forward so I told him he needs to stop doing drugs and get his act together because girl's aren't attracted to guys who are all into drinking and drugs and all that. Girls want a man. A man who can take care of business and own up to his responsibilities. I feel as though he really appreciated the conversation and took it to heart. Anyways, we were going to meet Morgan and everyone at Mel's to get something to eat but ended up going to the apartment. Jeff hopped in the shower and I fell asleep on the couch because I didn't feel all that great. I had been plannin on staying home that nigh tanyways. I thought I was jut going to be all by myself, get some sleep, and just relax and watch a movie. I figured the guys should have some time to themselves too and not have to worry about me. While Jeff is in the shower, I wake up and see Mike in the hall. He tells me he is going down to the store to get Jeff a little cake. 15 minutes later, after I have already fallen asleep again, like 10 people walk in singing happy birthday and freak me out. Jeff and I were just sitting there totally shocked. It was awesome. Then everyone left but Angelo and Ellen. I got up to use the restroom and saw that Morgan's bedroom liight was on. I went to go turn it off and saw some feet hanging over the end of the bed. I went to see who it was an it was Morgan. He decided not to go out. He wanted to stay home and get some sleep. Of course we ended up not sleeping at all. Ellen and Angelo left so it was just Morgan and I. We were so bored so we had our usual deep conversation about life and everything then he started his prank call sessions. I got kind of bored of it and went in the other room to play video games. We called Matt that night and I ended up talking to him. Honestly, I wasn't thinking about him as much as I usually do until I heard his voice. It was such a good feeling to hear him. Then I really started to miss him. At that time, I couldn't wait to get home and see him. Something about him makes me so unblievably happy. It's cool. I like it a lot. So, Morgan and I stayed up even longer after that and had a long conversation about relationships. Eventually, the guys came home and we had yet another long 6:00 am night. The next day, had one more good conversation on the balcony in the morning, got to the airport just in time, and went home. After I talked to Pa for a little bit, ate some dinner, and unpacked, I went to Matt's house. We had a great night together and just completely enjoyed eachother. He is a great thing to come home to.
That week, work and school were fine. Work was stressful, school hardly happened.
Kate was home for the weekend. We spent a day togheter which was alot of fun. Got our nails done, had our good, well needed best friend catch-up chat... etc. It was needed very much. Spent most of the weekend over at Morgan's house. Talked to a lot of people from back in the day. We called Dustin which was cool. Good to hear he is doing well.
Last night was nuts. Morgan and I went out to dinner with Jeff and Jason. Afterwards, we went to Jamie's house to see her and Krystal and eventually Billy and Kevin. I took Jeff and Jason back to Jeff's house then Morgan and I went back to his place. We had the best conversation we have had so far. I really enjoy talking with him. The discussions we have are very deep and are eye openers. I love talking to peple and finding out their views on everything. Anyways, we said our goodbye's and I headed back over to Jamie's. Me, Jamie, Krystal, Kevin, and Billy headed out to this party in boondocks out in Guernville. We stayed for about a half hour, I saw a few people I knew, and then I wanted to bail. Me, Billy, and Krystal walked out to my car and put the heater on and litened to 311 while we waited for Jamie and Kevin. All of us were arguing with them and blah blah blah... so eventually, Billy told them he would come back to pick them up while him, Krystal, and I went back to my house to watch the OC. Half way to my house, Billy calls me and tells me he has to turn around because there were 10 cops who showed up, someone got hit by a truck, nd then ran into someone's house. Billy headed back over at about 2:30 and we watched the OC for a while. Of course, I fell asleep, as did he, and he ended up leaving at about 5:30 in the morning. I called Morgan because I knew he was awake driving down to LA so we talked for a while. He wanted to bring me Jack in the box at 6 am... haha. Woke up late this morning and now I am just sitting in bed doing a whole lotta nothing.
Ten more days. I can't believe how much time has flown by. I am going to be so torn up. I don't know what I am going to do. So many people have been concerned about me and have been calling me. I am just so confused. I don't know what I am going to do. I imagine my life without him and I can't help put cry. I love him so much. What do you do when the person who makes you happiest is moving away for good? I'm just going to have to try and stay strong. Honestly, I can't handel any more loss. Too much in such a little amount of time. I don't know what I am going to do. I really don't.
I had such a great time. A lot more fun than I had expected. The first night I got there, I saw an enzo within 25 minutes of being there. Pulled over in a red zone just to hear it. We got to Mike and Morgan's apartment and I started playing video games with Angelo. We ended up talking all night long. I learned alot and was very intrigued by him. That night, Angelo, Jesse, and I stayed up until about 5:30am just laughing non-stop. Then, everyone in Morgan and Mike's room were laughing and goofing off. I ended up in between Mike and Morgan's bed about sun rise time. The next day we drove around, went to the beach, saw Ozzy Osbourne's house, explored an old antique mansion, went to Starbucks, of course, then partied later that night. Morgan and I were the most... intoxicated. It was crazy! We stayed up all night, played music, talked, smoked cigars... it was unbelievable. Celebrated Jeff's birthday at 12:00 until 6:00am. The next morning, I woke up, made breakfast for all the guys (and everyone else who slept over). The day flew by pretty quick. Morgan had his show that night. It was so much fun! I saw Kyle and had a long conversation with him. It was really interesting. There is still that attraction there which was rather shocking to me. But it wawsn't even about that. It was more of a reunion, update thing. He told me that I was the only ex-girlfriend he was on good terms with. Then he started asking me about why girls tease and don't give in and how he just wants someone to love so bad. With Kyle, you have to be blunt and straight forward so I told him he needs to stop doing drugs and get his act together because girl's aren't attracted to guys who are all into drinking and drugs and all that. Girls want a man. A man who can take care of business and own up to his responsibilities. I feel as though he really appreciated the conversation and took it to heart. Anyways, we were going to meet Morgan and everyone at Mel's to get something to eat but ended up going to the apartment. Jeff hopped in the shower and I fell asleep on the couch because I didn't feel all that great. I had been plannin on staying home that nigh tanyways. I thought I was jut going to be all by myself, get some sleep, and just relax and watch a movie. I figured the guys should have some time to themselves too and not have to worry about me. While Jeff is in the shower, I wake up and see Mike in the hall. He tells me he is going down to the store to get Jeff a little cake. 15 minutes later, after I have already fallen asleep again, like 10 people walk in singing happy birthday and freak me out. Jeff and I were just sitting there totally shocked. It was awesome. Then everyone left but Angelo and Ellen. I got up to use the restroom and saw that Morgan's bedroom liight was on. I went to go turn it off and saw some feet hanging over the end of the bed. I went to see who it was an it was Morgan. He decided not to go out. He wanted to stay home and get some sleep. Of course we ended up not sleeping at all. Ellen and Angelo left so it was just Morgan and I. We were so bored so we had our usual deep conversation about life and everything then he started his prank call sessions. I got kind of bored of it and went in the other room to play video games. We called Matt that night and I ended up talking to him. Honestly, I wasn't thinking about him as much as I usually do until I heard his voice. It was such a good feeling to hear him. Then I really started to miss him. At that time, I couldn't wait to get home and see him. Something about him makes me so unblievably happy. It's cool. I like it a lot. So, Morgan and I stayed up even longer after that and had a long conversation about relationships. Eventually, the guys came home and we had yet another long 6:00 am night. The next day, had one more good conversation on the balcony in the morning, got to the airport just in time, and went home. After I talked to Pa for a little bit, ate some dinner, and unpacked, I went to Matt's house. We had a great night together and just completely enjoyed eachother. He is a great thing to come home to.
That week, work and school were fine. Work was stressful, school hardly happened.
Kate was home for the weekend. We spent a day togheter which was alot of fun. Got our nails done, had our good, well needed best friend catch-up chat... etc. It was needed very much. Spent most of the weekend over at Morgan's house. Talked to a lot of people from back in the day. We called Dustin which was cool. Good to hear he is doing well.
Last night was nuts. Morgan and I went out to dinner with Jeff and Jason. Afterwards, we went to Jamie's house to see her and Krystal and eventually Billy and Kevin. I took Jeff and Jason back to Jeff's house then Morgan and I went back to his place. We had the best conversation we have had so far. I really enjoy talking with him. The discussions we have are very deep and are eye openers. I love talking to peple and finding out their views on everything. Anyways, we said our goodbye's and I headed back over to Jamie's. Me, Jamie, Krystal, Kevin, and Billy headed out to this party in boondocks out in Guernville. We stayed for about a half hour, I saw a few people I knew, and then I wanted to bail. Me, Billy, and Krystal walked out to my car and put the heater on and litened to 311 while we waited for Jamie and Kevin. All of us were arguing with them and blah blah blah... so eventually, Billy told them he would come back to pick them up while him, Krystal, and I went back to my house to watch the OC. Half way to my house, Billy calls me and tells me he has to turn around because there were 10 cops who showed up, someone got hit by a truck, nd then ran into someone's house. Billy headed back over at about 2:30 and we watched the OC for a while. Of course, I fell asleep, as did he, and he ended up leaving at about 5:30 in the morning. I called Morgan because I knew he was awake driving down to LA so we talked for a while. He wanted to bring me Jack in the box at 6 am... haha. Woke up late this morning and now I am just sitting in bed doing a whole lotta nothing.
Ten more days. I can't believe how much time has flown by. I am going to be so torn up. I don't know what I am going to do. So many people have been concerned about me and have been calling me. I am just so confused. I don't know what I am going to do. I imagine my life without him and I can't help put cry. I love him so much. What do you do when the person who makes you happiest is moving away for good? I'm just going to have to try and stay strong. Honestly, I can't handel any more loss. Too much in such a little amount of time. I don't know what I am going to do. I really don't.