YEsterday
Well yesterday wasn't that bad. The school part was. Not with the subject just my crazy thoughts. All I wanted to do was go home. Steven wanted me to stay after school, but I watched Brandon and Kim disappear somewhere, felt sick, and went home. All I wanted was to be absolutely alone. I called him, and he called me back. I told him how careless he was and it made him feel crappy (unless he was faking that) wihch as horrible as it seems, made my day with the whole Kim and him getting seperated at lunch. Muhahaha. I'm such a bitch. But you know, he made me that way so he shouldn't complain. I made, "He loves me" but I was, "Taking way too long to wait for"? If that's love I just might kill myself. Seriously. And, "He stills loves me, but he's going out with her." What the hell is that? And "I do love you, but it's fading away..." What kind of love do you have buddy? Cuz that's just bad. Mine's not fading. And, "Just get over me and be happy." It's like, "Eff you! Sorry, I'm not like you, I can't just replace someone." And a whole ton of things I keep thinking of. He always seems thrilled with her all day at school, and not to mention those lovey dovey Myspace things. *sigh* Is this all one horrible dream? I feel like it is, and I'm just gonna wake up and he'll be there, and everything will be right agian. But then reality slaps me and goes, "You wish" So yeah. yay?
So yesterday I also had an actually ok night. Me, Jessie May, Steven, Dora, Mike, Asian, Will, and Alyssa went to see The Skeleton Key Poor Jessie was scared shitless. I felt bad. I saw Jay Shooster there. I was like, "Whoa!" I miss the old him a lot... the new one is a stranger to me. Hmmm. We always saw Sofia. Yay Sofia! Haha. She's so cute. Oh, and Alyssa like felt me up at the movies. Hahahaha! It's not what it sounds like. It was really dark in there and we were trying to find a seat and she was like reaching out and saying, "Where are you?!" and ywah, she grabbed portions without knowing exactly what she was getting into. XD I was like, "Alyssa, if we made out, we would've gone farther then how far I went with Brandon in one night." Haha. We're such losers. Oh well. *rememebers things and how they'll never be the same*
So yesterday I also had an actually ok night. Me, Jessie May, Steven, Dora, Mike, Asian, Will, and Alyssa went to see The Skeleton Key Poor Jessie was scared shitless. I felt bad. I saw Jay Shooster there. I was like, "Whoa!" I miss the old him a lot... the new one is a stranger to me. Hmmm. We always saw Sofia. Yay Sofia! Haha. She's so cute. Oh, and Alyssa like felt me up at the movies. Hahahaha! It's not what it sounds like. It was really dark in there and we were trying to find a seat and she was like reaching out and saying, "Where are you?!" and ywah, she grabbed portions without knowing exactly what she was getting into. XD I was like, "Alyssa, if we made out, we would've gone farther then how far I went with Brandon in one night." Haha. We're such losers. Oh well. *rememebers things and how they'll never be the same*