I miss SMAP
2018 is here already. I'm watching Captain singing on SanTaku. It has been a year since I watch the current Captain singing. things change so fast, I was broken, hopeless, breaking into pieces, both online as a fangirl and in reality (real life was a mess) at this time, last year. but today is a bit better.
Dec 31 2016 - I felt like part of my youth was ended. killed. massacred.
Paripia left that fcuking company (please excuse my language, and my negative toward them, but I can't help).
I thought at the time, it would be fine. they need rest, so if they are blocked, or blacklisted, let them rest for a while.
Atarashii Chizu, NAKAMA, world NAKAMA, twitter, intagram, blog, 72hr LIVE TV, reunion with Mori, reunion with Michi,... these things are just too much, a lot of love, joy, happiness to handle.
of course I miss 2top. I miss Nakai Masahiro. Kimura Takuya. 5-man SMAP together. I miss SMAP dearly. but I can't bring myself to watch any current show, listen to WUS, or join Captain's free fansite. it's hurt.
call me illusional or hopeless or whatever, I still believe SMAP will be back. together. as 6. and with Michi. SMAP will be. for the past 2 years, I cried because of SMAP a couple times. I didn't mean to, but my tears just dropped. every time. I didn't want to. SMAP gives me so much, the time people seem to leave me one by one, SMAP was still there.
so for one, I'm graceful. I could stay, with SMAP.
Dec 31 2016 - I felt like part of my youth was ended. killed. massacred.
Paripia left that fcuking company (please excuse my language, and my negative toward them, but I can't help).
I thought at the time, it would be fine. they need rest, so if they are blocked, or blacklisted, let them rest for a while.
Atarashii Chizu, NAKAMA, world NAKAMA, twitter, intagram, blog, 72hr LIVE TV, reunion with Mori, reunion with Michi,... these things are just too much, a lot of love, joy, happiness to handle.
of course I miss 2top. I miss Nakai Masahiro. Kimura Takuya. 5-man SMAP together. I miss SMAP dearly. but I can't bring myself to watch any current show, listen to WUS, or join Captain's free fansite. it's hurt.
call me illusional or hopeless or whatever, I still believe SMAP will be back. together. as 6. and with Michi. SMAP will be. for the past 2 years, I cried because of SMAP a couple times. I didn't mean to, but my tears just dropped. every time. I didn't want to. SMAP gives me so much, the time people seem to leave me one by one, SMAP was still there.
so for one, I'm graceful. I could stay, with SMAP.