Blahhh!
I haven't written in this LJ for quite some time. I've done very little reading and no sewing at all. I still visit the websites I like to frequent but not as much as I used to, I'm finding little joy in much of anything. I've kind of lost my "umph" and I'm not sure when I'm going to get it back. I'm having a hard time getting out of bed these days and I kind of drift through the days at work in a fog. I have forced myself to go for a 20-30 minute walk every day which is some help. I've suffered from depression for most of my adult life and I know enough to know these signs and symptoms are not good so (with the encouragement of several friends) I've gone back on antidepressants. I feel guilty and a bit of a failure because for the first time in 12 years I had weaned myself off from the medication and I was sure I could do it on my own. In talking to my doctor she told me that it was admirable that I had gone off the medications and that I wanted to deal with my real feelings but she felt strongly that this was not the time to do that. Sooooo hopefully I'll be feeling better and stronger within the next couple of weeks and will be in more of a mood to write here and to talk with all of my LJ friends. Don't forget me if I'm gone for a while, okay?