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Chyeah so I wish I wrote more. I wish I had more time.
Seems like it never fails that I get myself into messes, I make them, I don't know how to clean them.
I dig holes that turn into graves.
I make people cry, or I would if they only knew.
I guess I'm what people would consider a flirt. I don't particularly like it but.. I dunno.
This is just complicating things SO MUCH.
Cause I dunno I guess I'm "flirting" with Marco and Darwin.
And I don't wanna end up hurting Anthony any more than I already have you know?
Marco would make him feel more hurt. Darwin he wouldn't even know about.
I don't really feel up to the dishonesty and shit though, cause he's good to me and trusts me just a little and confided a lot in me..
But I don't want to feel obligated or confined.. you know? I HATE that.
I do things for ME. What I want. ME.
Other people are NOT supposed to come first. I can see it ending in some huge blowout, I can. That's a sad thought too. Really sad. Cause I dunno where anything plans to go yet or how it could turn out, but I don't just wanna wait and limit myself to that. I'm kjust gunna find a huge predicament over this very soon.
Because I like Marco and maybe Darwin too but I dunno what could come out of either of those situations. I have so much baggage I doubt that they could handle and all the other Brittan says factors too...I don't knnow!!I wonder how thning happnes a lort
Brittan just is a mess neds to confront hr mess by developing these friendships with the men and try it that way
main point I value Anthony don't wnanns hurt us our our friendship
I like Marco
I like Darwin
Seems like it never fails that I get myself into messes, I make them, I don't know how to clean them.
I dig holes that turn into graves.
I make people cry, or I would if they only knew.
I guess I'm what people would consider a flirt. I don't particularly like it but.. I dunno.
This is just complicating things SO MUCH.
Cause I dunno I guess I'm "flirting" with Marco and Darwin.
And I don't wanna end up hurting Anthony any more than I already have you know?
Marco would make him feel more hurt. Darwin he wouldn't even know about.
I don't really feel up to the dishonesty and shit though, cause he's good to me and trusts me just a little and confided a lot in me..
But I don't want to feel obligated or confined.. you know? I HATE that.
I do things for ME. What I want. ME.
Other people are NOT supposed to come first. I can see it ending in some huge blowout, I can. That's a sad thought too. Really sad. Cause I dunno where anything plans to go yet or how it could turn out, but I don't just wanna wait and limit myself to that. I'm kjust gunna find a huge predicament over this very soon.
Because I like Marco and maybe Darwin too but I dunno what could come out of either of those situations. I have so much baggage I doubt that they could handle and all the other Brittan says factors too...I don't knnow!!I wonder how thning happnes a lort
Brittan just is a mess neds to confront hr mess by developing these friendships with the men and try it that way
main point I value Anthony don't wnanns hurt us our our friendship
I like Marco
I like Darwin