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OMG OMG OMG. Okay, so you know how I was assuming that I didn't get that apartment because I'd texted him Wednesday and he hadn't gotten back to me? So I just got this:
"Hi [Ver], my landlord would like to meet you before signing a lease for the room you're interested in. Would you like to meet with him tomorrow afternoon? Let me know, I'll confirm exact time to meet tomorrow."
(Keep in mind that when I went to look at the apartment, he'd said that meeting the landlord, if it got to that point, was really just a formality and probably a five minute meeting, so for all intents and purposes, I already have it.) EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Oh my god, I feel sick. I mean, I'm happy (especially since further hunting has produced ZERO results, and especially since I just today got a lecture from my mother about how lazy I am because apparently I should be working full time in addition to going to school full time so that I can give her money x2- which is a whole other thing, like... last semester was hell even without working. If I had another one like that and I was working full time, I'm pretty sure I would have a complete mental breakdown. Also keep in mind that she hasn't really moved in the last few months except when she's absolutely had to, so her effectively calling me lazy for "just" going to school is pretty rich.). Don't get me wrong, I'm totally psyched about this. But I'm also completely fucking terrified. Two reasons:
1) I still really, REALLY do not want to have this conversation with my mother. I can't even begin to tell you. If I thought even for a second that I could get away with just packing up all my stuff and leaving without telling her, I would, it's that bad. There's going to be a fight. I know there is. She's going to blame me for everything ever, and I'm a horrible lazy person and I -owe- her to stay, I can see this coming now. And I don't deal with confrontation well, so I'm like... shaking just thinking about it. My first instinct with confrontation is to back down immediately. ajdsklajdklsa.
2) PACKING AND MOVING ZOMG I AM NOWHERE NEAR READY FOR THIS MY ROOM IS STILL A DISASTER FUUUUUUUCK.
Yeah, I basically want to throw up now.
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This has been crossposted to my DW account. You are free to comment either here or there, if you'd like to comment. Preferably here, but it doesn't really matter. Whichever one works for you. :D
"Hi [Ver], my landlord would like to meet you before signing a lease for the room you're interested in. Would you like to meet with him tomorrow afternoon? Let me know, I'll confirm exact time to meet tomorrow."
(Keep in mind that when I went to look at the apartment, he'd said that meeting the landlord, if it got to that point, was really just a formality and probably a five minute meeting, so for all intents and purposes, I already have it.) EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Oh my god, I feel sick. I mean, I'm happy (especially since further hunting has produced ZERO results, and especially since I just today got a lecture from my mother about how lazy I am because apparently I should be working full time in addition to going to school full time so that I can give her money x2- which is a whole other thing, like... last semester was hell even without working. If I had another one like that and I was working full time, I'm pretty sure I would have a complete mental breakdown. Also keep in mind that she hasn't really moved in the last few months except when she's absolutely had to, so her effectively calling me lazy for "just" going to school is pretty rich.). Don't get me wrong, I'm totally psyched about this. But I'm also completely fucking terrified. Two reasons:
1) I still really, REALLY do not want to have this conversation with my mother. I can't even begin to tell you. If I thought even for a second that I could get away with just packing up all my stuff and leaving without telling her, I would, it's that bad. There's going to be a fight. I know there is. She's going to blame me for everything ever, and I'm a horrible lazy person and I -owe- her to stay, I can see this coming now. And I don't deal with confrontation well, so I'm like... shaking just thinking about it. My first instinct with confrontation is to back down immediately. ajdsklajdklsa.
2) PACKING AND MOVING ZOMG I AM NOWHERE NEAR READY FOR THIS MY ROOM IS STILL A DISASTER FUUUUUUUCK.
Yeah, I basically want to throw up now.
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This has been crossposted to my DW account. You are free to comment either here or there, if you'd like to comment. Preferably here, but it doesn't really matter. Whichever one works for you. :D