Determination, Hangovers, Pseudo-alienation, Love, Will and the art of being indifferent.
We all enjoy putting pressure on our own souls. We make them do the things we wish we dared to do. CONTRADICTION Putting pressure on our souls causes us to do the things... we obviously dare to do if we've done them. So speaking from this point of view the only advice I can give to myself today is never be afraid of yourself because pushing and poking at your soul is far healthier than secluding and neglecting it. I believe ones soul is simply the person you talk to every second of your life. Whether or not it continues to live forever... egal.. It's as though there are two of everyone... Or Maybe just for me. Maybe you have three... or none. I don't know and it's not my business to know.
Family... wow... being with people who are older, and weird.. they love sports and america.. It's very frightening for a soul like mine although I am able to enjoy myself while Im there (within the last couple weeks), it just makes me want to open up to them completely. Show them who I am if they want to know me so bad. They'll never be able to judge me then because they begged for it. And they will get it. They give me shit for never going over there, they don't understand I am afraid to go there.. there must be lots of pushing and poking and forcing inside me.. this is something I feel I am rapidly being able to deal with in better, more efficient and enjoyable ways. I just like life for once. I really do. And I love my friends and family in a more genuine sense than I've ever felt before.
Ich will bei deiner Seite sein... Ich weiss du kannst mich nicht verstehen aber ich muss es irgendwie sagen. Ich bin in dich verliebt und kann nichts dafür.
Family... wow... being with people who are older, and weird.. they love sports and america.. It's very frightening for a soul like mine although I am able to enjoy myself while Im there (within the last couple weeks), it just makes me want to open up to them completely. Show them who I am if they want to know me so bad. They'll never be able to judge me then because they begged for it. And they will get it. They give me shit for never going over there, they don't understand I am afraid to go there.. there must be lots of pushing and poking and forcing inside me.. this is something I feel I am rapidly being able to deal with in better, more efficient and enjoyable ways. I just like life for once. I really do. And I love my friends and family in a more genuine sense than I've ever felt before.
Ich will bei deiner Seite sein... Ich weiss du kannst mich nicht verstehen aber ich muss es irgendwie sagen. Ich bin in dich verliebt und kann nichts dafür.