take me to the place where promises do not break

[verlasestrellas]

it's about that time again. it's 221 in the morning and it sets in.

is this the life i want to be leading?
yes because as always i live my life like this...
live and learn.

check.
balance.

reset.

i am who i am.

but where do i want to go from here.
what is my next step?

where will i be in five years.
ten years.
twenty.

i'm dying to find out.
literally.

we all are.

i want to be selfish.
i want to be selfless.

i want to be inspired.
and i choose to surround and admire people that do that for me.

but do i inspire anyone?
am i of any real value to my friends?

am i making a mark?

is my life noteworthy?

how will i be remembered...

as the girl who knows she isn't home,
but isn't willing to take the chance to find it.

and yet again,
i will not know where my home is until i am willing to go find it.

i know that my friends are my home. they are the manifestation of 'home'.
but where will i feel at home? where is the physical place in this world that is my home?

with whom will i feel completely at home with?
as myself, every aspect.
the known and the unknown.

the me that is coming to be.

jess