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why does everything have to be so inconveinent and ridiculous? i am sick of everything that has happened recently. everything is either completely planned out for me or it's up in the air in a big fucking mess. whatever happened to having options and decisions to make for myself. it is all out of my reach. and it's not even that it just seems like that. any move i want to make, i can't because of some other reason. it seems like i am just bullshitting around until what i really want comes along. don't ask me about this.