What's it been, 10 years?
Its been 84 year years....
Ok its only been 10. I got an email from LJ for my 17 year old journal. WOW. I am glad it didn't get purged. I looked back through some of my old posts, and it is just a mess. I guess that just means life is messy right? My mid 20's and some of my 30's are documented here, and it can be fun to look back and see what I was up to and where I am now.
I ranted about moving back to Seattle for years. Guess what, I'm still in Wisconsin, and I think I actually like it. Seattle has changed, and for the worse it seems. I haven't been back to visit since 2018, and I am definitely overdue. If I ever move back to Washington, it won't be to that area though. I've even considered Oregon. But the truth is, I don't really know where I want to live. I guess it will depend on what I do with my career.
I've been working at the hospital for 9 years now, and my dream of becoming an RN is fading away. Mostly because I don't want to deal with the bullshit that I see nurses have to put up with. From patients, providers, and administration. I know that there is more to nursing than just bedside, but I feel like that's where I will get the most use out of schooling and developing skills. If I still want to pursue nursing, next year I will apply for the apprenticeship program my job started. I applied this year, but was unable to interview due to my surgery.
What surgery? I had gastric bypass!! My health is becoming my biggest priority right now, because at 42, I have been unsuccessful at losing and keeping weight off. Surgery is a tool that will help me in the long run. I am only 3 weeks post-op but things are going good so far. I hate eating haha. My stomach feels weird, and it will take some time for things to get back to normal. All my follow up appointments have been good and everything is going as expected.
In the end, I just want to work from home and not be around people. I am doing a medical coding program (which I REALLY need to start working on) because that seems like a good career move. Still in the medical field (which I love) but without the people! I just need to find the balance in my life for all the things I have going on.
I am moving back in with my parents (temporarily) to start saving for a house/condo. I am sick of living with other people, and I want my own space. Its time. I have a LOT of work to do to make it happen, but I am determined. Between working and trying to side hustle, I'd like to be looking in about 2 years. I am positive that I can make it happen, I just have to cut out all of the distractions. I have a storage unit that I've already started to move things into, but I have to finish that up in the next couple of weeks because I am out of my place by the end of July. I can't lift anything over 15 lbs (until August) so I am trying to move all the small lightweight stuff that I won't need ahead of time. Its a process but so far its been going well.
I feel like my life is starting a weird repeat kind of pattern. It is hard to explain, but it just feels like 2002 is starting, but on a much better note. I guess things come back around, but I don't want that year, or the subsequent years to come back around. My 20's were awful, so no thanks.