Sigh.
Bleh.
Today was okay. The mall had a little cosplay contest thing, so a few of us went over there. Wasn't much, but wasn't expecting much, because it's Bakersfield and supplies are limited. It was good to participate, though. If people had events like that and no one showed up, they wouldn't ever do them again, you know? So interest in anime is growing, and maybe eventually we'll get something worthwhile.
In the meantime, the Asian Market is gone, so so much for looking forward to that.
Scully's sick, and I kind of don't think she's going to make it to tomorrow. She hasn't been swimming much lately. Just kind of floating in one of the corners. Changed the water today, since I've been needing to, but haven't wanted to cause her any more stress, since she hasn't been doing well for a few days. x.x; But finally decided it was necessary, and I doubt she's going to take it well. She started floating sideways when I moved her into the cup, which is a pretty bad sign. She kept that when I put her in the new water, too. She's moving around a bit more now, but she's obviously having to work to not be swimming sideways, so yeah... not real optimistic about that. Hoping maybe the change of water helped, but I really doubt it... used bottled water, which is a bad idea since they put baking soda in it, but I think it's probably a lot better than the tap water here. Since *I* can't drink the tap water, and the cats can't drink the tap water, and the rabbit couldn't drink the tap water, I don't think the fish could *live* in the tap water without dying like, immediately. I get pretty damned sick when I drink it.
This is one of the reasons why I've been trying NOT to get fish. Because I don't know what the hell I'm doing, so I know I'm going to kill them, and it's going to be my fault, but I have no idea what to do about it. So I'm just going to wind up feeling bad about that, since I get attached easily and I really hate that I always suck at keeping things.
I don't know. Still depressed, still angry, not really feeling any better, still home, still wanting to go home, still not sure what that even means. Still being stereotypical and angsty, and still annoyed by it.
I do think I'm getting over it, though. I just need to find more ways to keep busy.
Been looking up stuff on Japanese universities. Haven't found much of anything useful... well, not in the context that I'm looking for. Apparently university in Japan is more like highschool in America, while highschool is more like college. So I guess that's interesting. I don't know how to feel about that, since I think both are pretty hard for me. But I guess I wont be writing five essays every week. But I did that in highschool, too... So it doesn't really help me much for people to say that. o.x; It's also apparently possible to get permission to have a parttime job, so I'll have to do that when I'm abroad. They limit the number of hours you can work and everything, but that's fine with me. Anything helps.
Tried to find stuff on Reitaku, but couldn't find much. Looked at its academic calendar. Have to take a test to get in, but I imagine most of them probably want that, huh? I wonder what's on it, though. They don't seem to mention... They also apparently have a school festival on October 31st.
There seems to be a lot more on their Japanese page, for obvious reasons, but that doesn't really help me much.
I guess I should work on my Japanese.
Today was okay. The mall had a little cosplay contest thing, so a few of us went over there. Wasn't much, but wasn't expecting much, because it's Bakersfield and supplies are limited. It was good to participate, though. If people had events like that and no one showed up, they wouldn't ever do them again, you know? So interest in anime is growing, and maybe eventually we'll get something worthwhile.
In the meantime, the Asian Market is gone, so so much for looking forward to that.
Scully's sick, and I kind of don't think she's going to make it to tomorrow. She hasn't been swimming much lately. Just kind of floating in one of the corners. Changed the water today, since I've been needing to, but haven't wanted to cause her any more stress, since she hasn't been doing well for a few days. x.x; But finally decided it was necessary, and I doubt she's going to take it well. She started floating sideways when I moved her into the cup, which is a pretty bad sign. She kept that when I put her in the new water, too. She's moving around a bit more now, but she's obviously having to work to not be swimming sideways, so yeah... not real optimistic about that. Hoping maybe the change of water helped, but I really doubt it... used bottled water, which is a bad idea since they put baking soda in it, but I think it's probably a lot better than the tap water here. Since *I* can't drink the tap water, and the cats can't drink the tap water, and the rabbit couldn't drink the tap water, I don't think the fish could *live* in the tap water without dying like, immediately. I get pretty damned sick when I drink it.
This is one of the reasons why I've been trying NOT to get fish. Because I don't know what the hell I'm doing, so I know I'm going to kill them, and it's going to be my fault, but I have no idea what to do about it. So I'm just going to wind up feeling bad about that, since I get attached easily and I really hate that I always suck at keeping things.
I don't know. Still depressed, still angry, not really feeling any better, still home, still wanting to go home, still not sure what that even means. Still being stereotypical and angsty, and still annoyed by it.
I do think I'm getting over it, though. I just need to find more ways to keep busy.
Been looking up stuff on Japanese universities. Haven't found much of anything useful... well, not in the context that I'm looking for. Apparently university in Japan is more like highschool in America, while highschool is more like college. So I guess that's interesting. I don't know how to feel about that, since I think both are pretty hard for me. But I guess I wont be writing five essays every week. But I did that in highschool, too... So it doesn't really help me much for people to say that. o.x; It's also apparently possible to get permission to have a parttime job, so I'll have to do that when I'm abroad. They limit the number of hours you can work and everything, but that's fine with me. Anything helps.
Tried to find stuff on Reitaku, but couldn't find much. Looked at its academic calendar. Have to take a test to get in, but I imagine most of them probably want that, huh? I wonder what's on it, though. They don't seem to mention... They also apparently have a school festival on October 31st.
There seems to be a lot more on their Japanese page, for obvious reasons, but that doesn't really help me much.
I guess I should work on my Japanese.