The Good Guy
Start: 1:59 AM
So last night as I was going to sleep, I started thinking about something that's been running through my mind for awhile, yet I haven't been able to fully grasp all of it. The subject that I was thinking about was the kind of person I want to be in respect to girls. I guess I'll try to outline the good/bad guys (at least for me):
Good guy: Your typical, wholesome boy next door. He's always there when you need a shoulder to cry on. He won't try taking advantage of girls and whatnot. He's strictly boyfriend material. Hook ups inherently imply loose morals. In the movies, he's the boyfriend the girl has had since middle school, he's the guy that resists other girls and stays loyal to his girlfriend, despite any amount of extenuating circumstances. I guess you could call him a hopeless romantic, the kind that stands outside, beneath your window, throwing rocks. When he has a girlfriend, he's polite, considerate and the relationship is about a deep, emotional connection rather than physical lust. If it makes sense, the good guy doesn't have sex, he makes love.
Bad guy: He doesn't really do girlfriends, but if he does, they are relationships that revolve around sex. Furthermore, even if he has a girlfriend, he is not oblivious to the potential of cheating. Alcohol and drugs may or may not be part of his repetoire, but many times they are responsible for girls under the influence getting with him. He's the kind of guy that calls you at 11:24 PM wondering if you want to "hang out" at his house. He's the kind of guy that is always working on a girl, if not more. A lot of the time, if he has a girlfriend, he's mean to her, pushes her around knowing that she'll take it.
Now, I've been thinking about it and I'm pretty confident that in high school, girls go through a lot of bad guys before they wisen up and spring for the good guy. The reason behind that is because the bad guys are popular, they are status symbols and girls in high school often feel like they are missing something without a boyfriend, so they go for what's considered desirable. The bad guys were either bad and got popular, or used to be good and got popular and figured out they could get a lot of ass being bad.
In high school, I feel that I was (or at least I hope I was) a good guy for the vast majority of the time. In college, I'm honestly not sure about the kind of person I want to be. I think that this summer complicates things. I mean I could try to find a girlfriend, but I'm leaving for China on the 30th and coming back on August 18th. Then I leave on Sept. 3rd. That doesn't leave a lot of consistent time to have any kind of in depth relationship with anyone. However, that doesn't necessarily defer me to aim to just hook up with girls. I always feel bad after hooking up with girls because it's an empty experience. It's nothing but submission to carnal desire, which I feel is uncivilized to say the least.
I guess I'm just a little worried. In my four years of high school, I've had one girlfriend and that was for a few months. I mean, do nice guys really finish last? Will things be different in college? I think deep down, I want to be a good guy, to have a steady girlfriend who I can share movie-like moments with, someone I can be with. But I guess I'm tempted by the appeal of being promiscuous. I know I'd feel empty after each hookup, and earn a lot of "dark-side" points, but I can't deny that it will help me find a girlfriend. Because in all reality, the bad guys are much more well known than the good guys. I feel so evil writing this, but it's the truth.
I think that in college, I will try dating. I don't want to be the bad guy. I really do want to be the good guy but I just can't wait anymore. Maybe I'm doing something wrong. Or maybe the wait is what makes it all the more worthwhile when the good guy finally wins.
End 2:22 AM
So last night as I was going to sleep, I started thinking about something that's been running through my mind for awhile, yet I haven't been able to fully grasp all of it. The subject that I was thinking about was the kind of person I want to be in respect to girls. I guess I'll try to outline the good/bad guys (at least for me):
Good guy: Your typical, wholesome boy next door. He's always there when you need a shoulder to cry on. He won't try taking advantage of girls and whatnot. He's strictly boyfriend material. Hook ups inherently imply loose morals. In the movies, he's the boyfriend the girl has had since middle school, he's the guy that resists other girls and stays loyal to his girlfriend, despite any amount of extenuating circumstances. I guess you could call him a hopeless romantic, the kind that stands outside, beneath your window, throwing rocks. When he has a girlfriend, he's polite, considerate and the relationship is about a deep, emotional connection rather than physical lust. If it makes sense, the good guy doesn't have sex, he makes love.
Bad guy: He doesn't really do girlfriends, but if he does, they are relationships that revolve around sex. Furthermore, even if he has a girlfriend, he is not oblivious to the potential of cheating. Alcohol and drugs may or may not be part of his repetoire, but many times they are responsible for girls under the influence getting with him. He's the kind of guy that calls you at 11:24 PM wondering if you want to "hang out" at his house. He's the kind of guy that is always working on a girl, if not more. A lot of the time, if he has a girlfriend, he's mean to her, pushes her around knowing that she'll take it.
Now, I've been thinking about it and I'm pretty confident that in high school, girls go through a lot of bad guys before they wisen up and spring for the good guy. The reason behind that is because the bad guys are popular, they are status symbols and girls in high school often feel like they are missing something without a boyfriend, so they go for what's considered desirable. The bad guys were either bad and got popular, or used to be good and got popular and figured out they could get a lot of ass being bad.
In high school, I feel that I was (or at least I hope I was) a good guy for the vast majority of the time. In college, I'm honestly not sure about the kind of person I want to be. I think that this summer complicates things. I mean I could try to find a girlfriend, but I'm leaving for China on the 30th and coming back on August 18th. Then I leave on Sept. 3rd. That doesn't leave a lot of consistent time to have any kind of in depth relationship with anyone. However, that doesn't necessarily defer me to aim to just hook up with girls. I always feel bad after hooking up with girls because it's an empty experience. It's nothing but submission to carnal desire, which I feel is uncivilized to say the least.
I guess I'm just a little worried. In my four years of high school, I've had one girlfriend and that was for a few months. I mean, do nice guys really finish last? Will things be different in college? I think deep down, I want to be a good guy, to have a steady girlfriend who I can share movie-like moments with, someone I can be with. But I guess I'm tempted by the appeal of being promiscuous. I know I'd feel empty after each hookup, and earn a lot of "dark-side" points, but I can't deny that it will help me find a girlfriend. Because in all reality, the bad guys are much more well known than the good guys. I feel so evil writing this, but it's the truth.
I think that in college, I will try dating. I don't want to be the bad guy. I really do want to be the good guy but I just can't wait anymore. Maybe I'm doing something wrong. Or maybe the wait is what makes it all the more worthwhile when the good guy finally wins.
End 2:22 AM