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I've been thinking it's interesting that what I listed as wanting this year that I did not have last year actually are incredibly apt for exactly what I am feeling now.
Resolution. Advancement. Passion. Spirituality. Adventure.
I wanted resolution on a number of things, namely my two major health problems and the progress and path of music school.
I want to see like I am moving forward in those areas and in other areas of my life as well, I no longer want to be too worn out to deal with them. I need to move forward in the areas that I am able to control myself and once those are moving I can look at the areas that I can't control alone. I need to feel like I am evolving.
I need to feel passion. For people. For what I'm doing. For my life. I feel like I've been going through everything without being awake. I have these brief moments of suddenly being very present in my body and in the moment and in Angela. But most of the time I am not.
I would like to feel more at peace and more connected with the world. I want to feel open and optimistic again. I want to be ready to receive possibility and be ready to embrace it.
And yes, I would like adventure. Whether that is traveling or even adventure on a smaller scale, I need to take part in activities that invigorate me and inspire me and make me want to learn and grow and experience and share.
I have some ideas on how I want to start pursuing these paths, and I can't help mapping them out in my mind and seeing how interconnected they all are.
I just hope that I can gather enough energy to get myself started.
Resolution. Advancement. Passion. Spirituality. Adventure.
I wanted resolution on a number of things, namely my two major health problems and the progress and path of music school.
I want to see like I am moving forward in those areas and in other areas of my life as well, I no longer want to be too worn out to deal with them. I need to move forward in the areas that I am able to control myself and once those are moving I can look at the areas that I can't control alone. I need to feel like I am evolving.
I need to feel passion. For people. For what I'm doing. For my life. I feel like I've been going through everything without being awake. I have these brief moments of suddenly being very present in my body and in the moment and in Angela. But most of the time I am not.
I would like to feel more at peace and more connected with the world. I want to feel open and optimistic again. I want to be ready to receive possibility and be ready to embrace it.
And yes, I would like adventure. Whether that is traveling or even adventure on a smaller scale, I need to take part in activities that invigorate me and inspire me and make me want to learn and grow and experience and share.
I have some ideas on how I want to start pursuing these paths, and I can't help mapping them out in my mind and seeing how interconnected they all are.
I just hope that I can gather enough energy to get myself started.