Today
Work was not as bad as I had imagined. My dept boss, J, is now talking normally to me, so I feel that maybe she is hoping I won't need reprimanding this term.
Several ppl hugged me so I think I'm not as bitchy as J made out - perhaps.
Chris came with me to see the Doc. She was great and did ask me lots about how I'd been managing - also suggested I eat more protein to stop my blood sugar droppping so much. She has suggested both counselling and drugs. The counselling waiting list is actually 8 weeks long, but she says we will need a month on the tablets to assess any changes anyway. I have been prescribed Fluoxetine (Prozac) so we shall see how it goes.
I have long avoided taking drugs as I feel that most things can be solved with diet and herbs. However, i also fear becoming like my mother (who is on so many tablets she almost rattles), so maybe I've been irrational about it to the point of phobia ( I didn't even take aspirin up until my back injury). The side effects include a repressed sex drive - damn. Lets hope it won't affect me :(
I hate the idea of dependency, so I hope this can be a short-term thing. I'm willing to try anything to stop getting that desparate again. When the only options are Turkey or death, then drug dependency doesn't look quite so bad. Or maybe thats just my skewed view point again. (And they say the drugs cause impaired judgement - well i reasoned that i can't get much worse.)
Thank you for your comments and encouragement. I love you guys :)
Gonna go and eat some Thai beef salad now - gotta keep my blood sugar up.
Several ppl hugged me so I think I'm not as bitchy as J made out - perhaps.
Chris came with me to see the Doc. She was great and did ask me lots about how I'd been managing - also suggested I eat more protein to stop my blood sugar droppping so much. She has suggested both counselling and drugs. The counselling waiting list is actually 8 weeks long, but she says we will need a month on the tablets to assess any changes anyway. I have been prescribed Fluoxetine (Prozac) so we shall see how it goes.
I have long avoided taking drugs as I feel that most things can be solved with diet and herbs. However, i also fear becoming like my mother (who is on so many tablets she almost rattles), so maybe I've been irrational about it to the point of phobia ( I didn't even take aspirin up until my back injury). The side effects include a repressed sex drive - damn. Lets hope it won't affect me :(
I hate the idea of dependency, so I hope this can be a short-term thing. I'm willing to try anything to stop getting that desparate again. When the only options are Turkey or death, then drug dependency doesn't look quite so bad. Or maybe thats just my skewed view point again. (And they say the drugs cause impaired judgement - well i reasoned that i can't get much worse.)
Thank you for your comments and encouragement. I love you guys :)
Gonna go and eat some Thai beef salad now - gotta keep my blood sugar up.