Life is getting lovely again!
Sat up on Wednesday going thru loads of CDs and listening to The Wall for the first time since I was down last year. It's strange the sense of perspective it gives - knowing how I can be and how I am now - like two different ppl.
Anyway, a friend of hubby's is becoming a good friend of mine now. She came down with her daughter and boyfriend over crimbo and we had one of those 'no bullshit, cut-to-the-chase' conversations that are the quickest way of finding out if you r on the same wavelength. We agreed about so many things, music, ppl and how they don't get depression or how they try to 'snap' you out of it (as if!). Its particularly hard when the guy who does the snapping is your closest pal or lover who just doesn't understand.
Well we talked about all this and terminally sick relatives and ppl in cancer remission and the afterlife and spirituality - it was lovely to be able to find someone else like this - she reminds me of myself a few years ago and also of brain_error. They are both so wise in some ways, but they are both on their paths and so we are all students of life. Beautiful ppl! :D!
She is trying to recover from a recent car accident in which she broke several ribs and various other bits and pieces. I say 'trying' because she needs some space to sort out her own feelings, but her friends and boyfriends family feel she needs lots of attention.
Poor babe has just been 'going thru the motions' to keep other ppl happy - she's just waiting till everyones out of the way to let go.
But she has reserves and we did some bonding. Its often me that gives out the paperback support, but it was strange cus just before she left she gave me 'Illusions' by Richard Bach and all my fears and thoughts about my Aunt all came back at me.
Now I am working thru it. More synchronicity! I know I should be used to it by now, but when you've been down you don't see things, I don't see things. I mean the messages are probably still there but I get blinkered to them. So my joy in finding them again is really also happiness that I can see them again.
Been making music lists for depression - with a lift in mood towards the end (just in case). Think I'll burn her off a copy and see if it helps, although I know that, if I can bear to listen to music when I'm down, its usually very specific.
I'll post it when i'm done.
Love and light to all who know me and all who don't (YET!)
x sylph x
Anyway, a friend of hubby's is becoming a good friend of mine now. She came down with her daughter and boyfriend over crimbo and we had one of those 'no bullshit, cut-to-the-chase' conversations that are the quickest way of finding out if you r on the same wavelength. We agreed about so many things, music, ppl and how they don't get depression or how they try to 'snap' you out of it (as if!). Its particularly hard when the guy who does the snapping is your closest pal or lover who just doesn't understand.
Well we talked about all this and terminally sick relatives and ppl in cancer remission and the afterlife and spirituality - it was lovely to be able to find someone else like this - she reminds me of myself a few years ago and also of brain_error. They are both so wise in some ways, but they are both on their paths and so we are all students of life. Beautiful ppl! :D!
She is trying to recover from a recent car accident in which she broke several ribs and various other bits and pieces. I say 'trying' because she needs some space to sort out her own feelings, but her friends and boyfriends family feel she needs lots of attention.
Poor babe has just been 'going thru the motions' to keep other ppl happy - she's just waiting till everyones out of the way to let go.
But she has reserves and we did some bonding. Its often me that gives out the paperback support, but it was strange cus just before she left she gave me 'Illusions' by Richard Bach and all my fears and thoughts about my Aunt all came back at me.
Now I am working thru it. More synchronicity! I know I should be used to it by now, but when you've been down you don't see things, I don't see things. I mean the messages are probably still there but I get blinkered to them. So my joy in finding them again is really also happiness that I can see them again.
Been making music lists for depression - with a lift in mood towards the end (just in case). Think I'll burn her off a copy and see if it helps, although I know that, if I can bear to listen to music when I'm down, its usually very specific.
I'll post it when i'm done.
Love and light to all who know me and all who don't (YET!)
x sylph x