Breaking Hearts [7/?]

Dec 19, 2011 01:36

Author: Veridanya (軽 and 暗) 
Length: Multi-chapter
Genre: Drama, Angst
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Sakuraiba, Yama [Friendship], JunBa [Friendship] Nino x ?
Disclaimer: Only the story is ours
Summary:  After a long time relationship they didn't expect that the success of one of them could also meant the end of the relation.
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2 am. Aiba cursed to himself when he turned to look at the clock, again there was no sign his boyfriend would come back home any time soon. In a moment of frustration he throw away the cup of tea he had on the light table.

He had been holding back a lot but the situation was getting too much to him, he didn't know what to think or feel anymore, he kept repeating to himself it was just because Sho needed to adjust to his new position, that the older man was getting more and more absent, he took a deep breath to put himself back and started to clean the broken cup on the floor.

His mind was a mess, and there was no way he could get some sleep at that pace. He kept rolling around in the bed, when he heard the sound of Sho's keys when he opened the door, he covered his face with the covers and pretended to sleep when the older man finally got in the bedroom and kneeled in front of him to whisper a soft "I'm sorry".

He had to resist the temptation to open his eyes, until he felt Sho's weight on the other side of the bed.

The next days were as usual, they had no time to even talk. When Sho got home, Aiba was sleeping and when sho left, either Aiba was already gone or sleeping.

Aiba's health was getting the worst from it, he wasn't getting any sleep and he was really doing bad at work. To his luck, Jun covered him any time he'd make a mistake, but both of them knew he couldn't keep like that too long. After he had messed the keys for the nth time that day, Jun pushed him to the restroom and made him go home earlier.

"Now, go home and take some sleep. I'm not really stay here watching how you become a zombie. So go, and try to talk to Sho. Really, Aiba, this can't continue like this, it's not good for you"

As Aiba got home, he found Sho sitting in the sofa going through some papers. Aiba was really surprised to see him there; somehow, the other was never at home. As he came in, he saw the other looking at him and getting up.

"You're early"

That was all he got, not a "welcome home" or anything, just an obvious statement.

"Yeah, I wasn't feeling fine so Jun made me leave"

"I see, are you ok?" Sho moved closer to Aiba and touched his face "what's wrong?"

"I'm ok Sho-chan, don't worry"

"Masaki, I know there's something wrong. You know you can tell me, right?"

"It's just that I don't want to bother you..."

Aiba allowed the other to pull him to the sofa.

"Hey, you don't bother me. Now tell me what's wrong"

"It's just that... I miss you. You're always busy, and I understand it, your job is so important and you need to give your best... but we have no time to be together and it's ok, I'll support you whatever but..."

"But?"

Aiba didn't know how to say that, that he thought he wasn't enough for him that he knew someday he'll get tired of him and leave him.

"Masaki, what is it?"

"Just...

*why are you with me?"

"What do you mean?"

"You're an important person and who am I? I am nobody..."

"Hey, don't say that. It's not true"

Aiba felt the other hugging him, and just in that moment he broke, the tears flowing from his eyes uncontrollably. Sho kept patting his back, but it didn't calm Aiba, who kept sobbing in the other's embrace.

"Is it that what's been bothering you later?"

Aiba couldn't speak, he just nodded hoping the other would understand it.

"You don't have to worry about that, ok baby? Now, go to rest a little, I'll make dinner"

Somehow, Aiba felt relieved at least, while Sho kept care of him carefully. He had missed that too much, touching him, and being with him.

After dinner, they just cuddled in the sofa together, to watch a movie. He could sense the other a little off, but he didn't paid attention. He was there with him, and that was what mattered.

At some point, Sho's phone started to ring and he could see the other going to another room to talk. Aiba tried not to think too much about it, and quickly forgot about it when Sho came back and gave him a peck before sitting back in the sofa hugging him.
After that they went to bed, and Aiba started to kiss Sho passionately while his hand slipped under Sho's shirt, it was long time since they had spent a night together and he missed that, he missed he's touches. But his re-built confidence for the earlier talk got destroyed once again, when Sho grabbed his hand and stopped it.

"Why don't we sleep baby, you need to rest." He said softly, Aiba could sense a note of uneasiness in his boyfriend’s voice,  knew he didn't want to hurt his feelings, but for him was the same as he had been slapped and probably that would have hurt less.
He curled on his side of the bed, while his eyes met Sho's and almost in a whisper he replied

"Good night Sho-chan"

"Good night" was the only reply he got, from his boyfriend, who pulled him close to him in an embrace.

By the next morning things were back to the usual situation. When he opened his eyes, the warmth of Sho's body wasn't there, and again he had left early without him noticing it.

Somehow, he hoped that after talking with Sho things would be better. But unfortunately for him, it wasn't like that at all. As weeks passed by, Sho kept getting home late, and disappearing early by the morning. At times Aiba even questioned himself if he could consider he was living alone, since his boyfriend barely spend time in the apartment.

One afternoon while they were having a rest in the office in the back of the reception Jun brought the topic back, and Aiba couldn't keep hiding it from his friend

"So, are you going to tell me what's happening?" The younger man asked looking at Aiba

"Is just...I think I'm losing him, Jun-kun" Aiba sighted trying to hold his tears

"Didn't you talk about this already?" Jun asked with a tangible worried tone

"Yeah, but...I dunno, I wanted things to change, even if it was a little. But everything is still the same and..."Aiba cut his words

"And...?"

"And he doesn't touch me anymore" Aiba blushed furiously but quickly his face turned gloomy "And he didn't even spend the night at home..." a tear rolled down his cheek.

"What?! are you sure? Haven’t you told me sometimes you don't notice at what time he gets home and then leaves early?" Jun asked trying to calm his friend a bit

"I'm not dumb Jun, I know when he's not at home..."

The bell at the reception made them cut the conversation. Aiba took a minute to put himself together before heading out outside

"Let's go to work!" he said to Jun with a smile on his face, a smile that both of them knew was fake, but the younger man didn't say anything and went outside together.

As they got out, they found their boss standing there. Good thing he was a good man, and he knew they were reliable enough, so omitted the part that they were not behind the reception desk as they should be all the time.

"Guys, I need to ask you something. Ninomiya-san requested for some special services but they are not available today, so could you go to talk to him about it? I have to leave now"

Both of them nodded, it was true they didn't like that Ninomiya guy, but it was their work to make his stay pleasurable, so none of them would argue their boss decision.

After the whole explanation, it was decided Jun would stay in the reception and Aiba would be the one going to the VIP suite to inform Ninomiya and apologize in name of the hotel for it.

As he arrived to the suite, he knocked the door and it was received by Ninomiya just wearing a towel over his hips. Aiba vowed, looking down avoiding looking directly at him.

"Ninomiya-san, we are sorry to inform you that the services you requested are not available today, so if you'd want any other..."
But Aiba's words froze at the view in front of him.

SHO’S POV:

Sho doubted for a second, and then threw himself pulling Nino close in a violent kiss; he could feel the victorious smile of the thin boy while he kept kissing him.

"Smart boy" Nino whispered breaking the kiss and moving to his neck.

"Now be a good boy and fuck me!"

Sho stopped thinking at some point, letting himself get lost in the power the young man seemed to have over his will. For the time being with Nino, he stopped thinking about how wrong things were at home, about the sensation of getting more and more distanced with Aiba. For some time, he just surrendered to the pleasure, not thinking about anything else but what was happening, about giving Nino what he was asking for.

After both of them collapsed next to each other, Aiba’s face came to Sho’s mind and a wave of guilt made him almost choke the air he was breathing. Nino looked at him with an amused look.

"What? Just remembered the reception guy?"

Was he that obvious? That shouldn't have happened, even if things were wrong at home, this shouldn't be happening.

Sho got up and started to pick his clothes to get dressed and leave, it was late already but he didn't want to stay there. As he was about to speak, the other was faster.

"If you're gonna say this won't happen again, save it, we both know it will. And I'll be waiting for you"

Sho didn't utter a word; he left the room and started to walk towards the elevator.

As he got home, he found Aiba already sleeping, which was pretty normal considering the time. He kneeled down and whispered to the sleepy man

"I'm sorry" I'm sorry for hurting you all the time.

The next days were crazy again, and despite he told himself he should stop whatever Nino and him had, he just didn't. They kept going to have lunch and dinner together, and they kept their fucking nights.

Almost every day, Nino would call him, and he would go to him. He knew it wasn't right, but during all that moments, nothing else mattered. The stress at work, or his problems with Aiba, all would fly out of his mind.
Sho's head was a mess, he didn’t know what he was doing anymore, so he decided to go home earlier and try to work from there, he needed time to think what he was doing.

When he arrived, he noticed Aiba was't there; he wasn’t even sure what shift was having his boyfriend the most of the time.  He pulled out his laptop and some papers and started to work on them.

Not long after, Aiba arrived, surprising him. There were still at least 2 hrs for his shift to finish, so he couldn't help but to state the obvious.

"You're early" By the look in Aiba's face he knew he was just messing things up.

"Yeah, I wasn't feeling fine so Jun made me leave" Aiba’s answer was emotionless.

"I see, are you ok?" he got close and caressed Aiba's face "what's wrong?"

He could see Masaki hesitating before he replied his usual "I'm ok" but this time he wasn't going to leave him get away with that.

After insisting a little more, finally Aiba seemed to want to open up, so he pulled him to the sofa and convinced him to talk.
It was painful listening to his boyfriend's worries and the guilt hit him, he hugged him while the younger man started sobbing on his embrace.

He sent Aiba to take some rest, while he cook dinner, he wanted to compensate him all the suffering somehow. It was his fault the other was like that.

They had dinner and decided to watch a movie, when his mind wondered to Nino and the past nights. He wasn't paying attention to the movie and wondered if Aiba had noticed that when his phone started to ring, he stood up, giving a peck to Aiba and moved to the kitchen once he saw the name on the screen.

"Hello, Sho-chan" Nino spoke on the other side of the line

"Nino, I told you not to call me that!" he replied impatient

"But is cute" Nino said teasingly "Anyway, are you coming tonight?"

"No, I can't. And gotta go, we'll talk tomorrow"

"Oh I see, you're with the hotel boy, tell him I say hi" Nino chuckled when Sho didn't reply

"Fine, see you tomorrow, grumpy man"

Sho came back and sat besides Aiba, giving him a peck. He felt guilty, being besides him right after talking with Nino.
Soon after, they were moving to the bed, and as they laid there, Aiba started to kiss him. Sho would lie if he said he didn't want it too, but something inside his mind told him to stop as he felt Aiba's hand under his t-shirt, images of the sex with Nino flowing inside his mind. He couldn't do it. He grabbed Aiba's hand and motioned him to stop, telling him they should sleep since the other needed some rest.

He regretted it as Aiba curled to his side of the bed, he knew he had hurt him, but he couldn't dare to continue. He saw the look in the other's eyes when he told him good night, and he couldn't come with anything but another good night before pulling him towards him.

The next morning he woke up early and left before Aiba woke up. He couldn't stop thinking about their conversation, and how hurt was the other, but he kept doing the same. The job was demanding, and even when he told himself not to do it, he came to Nino anytime the other called him.

Things at home kept going wrong. He tried not to think much about it, focusing on his job, and just going home to sleep.
He almost didn't see Aiba in the last weeks, and he knew most of it was his fault, but he couldn't dare to go home more and see the other's suffering. And when Nino called him that night again, he went. He had stopped to question himself why he was doing it.
He was sure there was no way Aiba would see him arrive to the hotel, since he should be in home by now.  Once he arrived, Nino received him with a wild kiss, he was used to that already, so he just went with it.

"Are you mine tonight?" Nino asked

"Yeah" was all Sho replied merging in a kiss as usually things heated up until both of them collapsed in bed.

"You know? I could give you the world if you wanted" Nino said surprising Sho. "I'll give you a taste of how amazing your life should be, and how you could never have that with the reception guy"

"I told you not to talk about him" Sho said while standing up and headed to the bathroom

"Why not? I meant there's a reason why you're here, isn't it?" Sho listened Nino shout from the bed, and he knew he was right, there was a reason why he was there, why he couldn't avoid come back with him every time Nino asked, but he didn't know what that reason was. But those times helped him not to think about anything, to just let himself go with the flow.
When he went back to the room Nino was ordering something to the hotel manager, but he didn't pay attention and lay down in bed falling asleep.

When he woke up the next morning, it was already noon. He saw Nino looking at him wearing nothing but a towel covering him. But he wasn’t in the place to talk, he looked around for something to wear and found his pants as they heard the door. Nino went to open, leaving him there putting his underwear back. He couldn’t hear who was from there, so he went to take a look.

"Ninomiya-san, we are sorry to inform you that the services you requested are not available today, so if you'd want any other..."
He could see Aiba’s shocked face when he saw him. There was no way to avoid it now, he had already been found. He tried to go to Aiba, but the other finished his line before turning back and left.

“Masaki!”

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A/N: expected? unexpected? hating us too much now? Things get from bad to worse for the Sakuraiba couple...
Thank you for reading and commenting <3 We hope you're enjoying the fic

+ series: breaking hearts, * l: multi-chapter, * c: aiba masaki, * r: pg-13, * c: sakurai sho, * c: ninomiya kazunari, * g: angst, * p: sakurai sho/aiba masaki, * c: matsumoto jun, * g: drama

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