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i don't feel a thing anymore, it's like i'm stuck in the space between living and dying.
all i know is that i have to wake up tomorrow morning, brush my teeth, and do it all over again.
i feel as if i am so scared of my life getting worse by my own decision making that i seem to be making none at all. i'm almost done with (my website), that makes me happy because all i really want to do is show my work. i am getting my roommate back; daryn and i have been in love and in hate for such a long time that it is always the most natural occurrence of the whole day..i've given up the hope that i will one day be able to go out in the evenings and enjoy a movie and dinner at a typical hour with the person that i love because that will never happen. it still is incredibly hard to sit down at the dinner table by myself time and time again. i am so lonely at heart these days, it's disgusting.