(This is a sappy post) We Are All Made Of Stars
Copy and Paste if you have enjoyed the blessing of meeting people online that you never would have met any other way. This is my end of the year shout out to the many "friends" I have never been in the same room with but who have inspired, amused, comforted, encouraged, and touched me in so many ways. I love you people! Here's to another year together!!
(Theft'd from suave-badass)
2010 hasn't been that awesome for me. It hasn't been awesome for a lot of other people, either. In particular, and as all of you know by now, I lost the best thing in my life, my now ex-girlfriend, Sierra. We broke up and split apart and every day in some way or another I am reminded of how much I loved (and still do) love her.
But that's the past. Christmas would have been the 1 year Anniversary of us getting back together again after a relationship hiatus due to problems on both of our parts. That's why I don't like Christmas, and that's why I'm wary of the New Year. Last year I began 2010 on cloud nine. This year...this year I have changed a lot. I think in the past few months I have become a bit more of a spaz, but more comfortable with myself and the way I am. I am still struggling with anxiety, but I'm going to come off my paxil and try and handle this without the aid of drugs. Drugs, in reality, are just making me not care enough to try, to keep living, or to face my problems and conquer them. This isn't a resolution, this is a fact - I am not going to let anxiety keep me down. Not any more. Resolutions tend to end up as bullshit, and are promises we make to ourselves and those around us, but we end up breaking them. That's not what this is going to be. I'm going to stretch out of my comfort zone and learn to deal with whatever life throws at me. I'm going to be sober, and I'm not going to let things keep me down.
I think that that's the beauty of the new years. As we grow up we lose a lot of our imagination, but this one time of year we believe in our Winter Holiday stories, whatever they may be, and we believe wholeheartedly in our resolutions - at least for the first few days. We see this as a fresh palate, and we want to improve ourselves and be better, happier people.
Through Livejournal I've met a lot of awesome, amazing people. I know I don't say this a lot, but there are things about each and every one of you that I admire and look up to. I am so very happy, and consider myself so fortunate, to have met you all. We may not be close, and some friendships just don't work out, but I'm still thankful for every chance I get to make a new friend. Unfortunately, the internet is the only way I feel like I can keep friendships. I have a hard time out there in the big, scary, real world. I believe that that's going to change, and that I'll become more versatile in my ability to be social, but that isn't the point. The point is that you are all amazing people and I'm glad I know you all.
Now, if you've made it through all of that! Haha.
I had hoped to have my new account to make this post! Hopefully I still get it before midnight, but I'm hoping to have restos as my new LJ. I KNOW YOU ARE ALL ROLLING YOUR EYES, ESPECIALLY SOME OF YOU THAT HAVE KNOWN ME SINCE I WAS OFSUNSETS LMAO.
But.
I like that name. It makes me think of restoration, or healing spells in video games. I usually play healer types because I LIKE TO DO THAT. I'M GOOD AT IT. It's also why, deep, deep down, I want to be a doctor. I know that it's not likely thanks to gore and stuff being a trigger of mine, but! It's something I would get a lot of joy out of doing, because I like fixing people. I've spent years of my life fixing the emotions of people, but that's too involved. In hindsight, I think that's why I'm having so many emotional issues right now, stunting myself to help others through their hardships. I think it would be more rewarding to be able to fix people physically.
Anyway, those are my TL;DR reasons for wanting that username. /rambles. And Gengar hasn't been freed yet. :T
GIMME A PROMPT
a comment!fic meme
THIS IS EVERYONE'S THEME SONG FOR THIS YEAR.
KEEP YOUR EYES FIXED ON THE SUN.
EVEN ON A CLOUDY DAY.
[ New Years Post! ]
╰☆╮ { Say whatever you want to tell me before the new year; Anon is on. } ╰☆╮
(Theft'd from suave-badass)
2010 hasn't been that awesome for me. It hasn't been awesome for a lot of other people, either. In particular, and as all of you know by now, I lost the best thing in my life, my now ex-girlfriend, Sierra. We broke up and split apart and every day in some way or another I am reminded of how much I loved (and still do) love her.
But that's the past. Christmas would have been the 1 year Anniversary of us getting back together again after a relationship hiatus due to problems on both of our parts. That's why I don't like Christmas, and that's why I'm wary of the New Year. Last year I began 2010 on cloud nine. This year...this year I have changed a lot. I think in the past few months I have become a bit more of a spaz, but more comfortable with myself and the way I am. I am still struggling with anxiety, but I'm going to come off my paxil and try and handle this without the aid of drugs. Drugs, in reality, are just making me not care enough to try, to keep living, or to face my problems and conquer them. This isn't a resolution, this is a fact - I am not going to let anxiety keep me down. Not any more. Resolutions tend to end up as bullshit, and are promises we make to ourselves and those around us, but we end up breaking them. That's not what this is going to be. I'm going to stretch out of my comfort zone and learn to deal with whatever life throws at me. I'm going to be sober, and I'm not going to let things keep me down.
I think that that's the beauty of the new years. As we grow up we lose a lot of our imagination, but this one time of year we believe in our Winter Holiday stories, whatever they may be, and we believe wholeheartedly in our resolutions - at least for the first few days. We see this as a fresh palate, and we want to improve ourselves and be better, happier people.
Through Livejournal I've met a lot of awesome, amazing people. I know I don't say this a lot, but there are things about each and every one of you that I admire and look up to. I am so very happy, and consider myself so fortunate, to have met you all. We may not be close, and some friendships just don't work out, but I'm still thankful for every chance I get to make a new friend. Unfortunately, the internet is the only way I feel like I can keep friendships. I have a hard time out there in the big, scary, real world. I believe that that's going to change, and that I'll become more versatile in my ability to be social, but that isn't the point. The point is that you are all amazing people and I'm glad I know you all.
Now, if you've made it through all of that! Haha.
I had hoped to have my new account to make this post! Hopefully I still get it before midnight, but I'm hoping to have restos as my new LJ. I KNOW YOU ARE ALL ROLLING YOUR EYES, ESPECIALLY SOME OF YOU THAT HAVE KNOWN ME SINCE I WAS OFSUNSETS LMAO.
But.
I like that name. It makes me think of restoration, or healing spells in video games. I usually play healer types because I LIKE TO DO THAT. I'M GOOD AT IT. It's also why, deep, deep down, I want to be a doctor. I know that it's not likely thanks to gore and stuff being a trigger of mine, but! It's something I would get a lot of joy out of doing, because I like fixing people. I've spent years of my life fixing the emotions of people, but that's too involved. In hindsight, I think that's why I'm having so many emotional issues right now, stunting myself to help others through their hardships. I think it would be more rewarding to be able to fix people physically.
Anyway, those are my TL;DR reasons for wanting that username. /rambles. And Gengar hasn't been freed yet. :T
GIMME A PROMPT
a comment!fic meme
THIS IS EVERYONE'S THEME SONG FOR THIS YEAR.
KEEP YOUR EYES FIXED ON THE SUN.
EVEN ON A CLOUDY DAY.
[ New Years Post! ]
╰☆╮ { Say whatever you want to tell me before the new year; Anon is on. } ╰☆╮