Stupid cunt.
Dear Jennifer.
"I have finally realized that I am not all powerful (never really thought I was, but you get my point.) and I can not save everything. I have lost them and there is nothing I can do is just hope that they will lead happy lives and do everything we all said we would do in high school."
You didn't lose us. You pushed us away.
Several ways, in fact. First: what kind of best friend abuses the shit out of their friend and calls them a fat lard. And not in a joking or loving way.
Second: First there's your problems with me dating A. Even before I started seeing it go south real bad, you were like 'I don't think it's right for you. I don't think this or that or blah blah blah.' Okay, whatever. Advice taken, shut up. I finally break up with him and then I'm happy with L, and you're like okay, yeah, and you know, it's not a problem. But then you random start getting 'bad vibes' and you start bitching about how it's not good for me and I'm not going to end up living through whatever stupid ass scenario (This was just over a year ago...) and you run your little intervention in the park.
You pushed us further and further away. I didn't change, You did. Even K came around, once she got away from you long enough to see through your bullshit. You have all this crap about 'oh, well it'll happen! I dreamed it in black and white!' Dude, what ever. Shut the fuck up with this crap. You're not clairvoyant. I helped pull you out of some of the darkest times of your life, supposedly, but then when you think I'm about to go through some sort of hardship, you run off and say we can't be friends, and THAT'S how you're supposed to help me? I think not.You tried to make me choose. You and S or K and L. What kind of 'friend' sets bullshit ultimatums like that? And then it became ANOTHER war between you and K. It wasn't even about me and L anymore. You were just pissed at K for not following you blithely.
You're such a self-righteous hypocrite. You say that you've matured and you've grown up since high school and we've stayed the same. Not from what I've seen. You've stayed the same, or maybe even REGRESSED. You've essentially turned into THAT one, and you've got your head shoved so far up your ass you can't find your way out of your own self-imposed shit. We've moved on since all that drama. I'm now over a year strong with L, and we're still just as happy as we were before. Maybe MORE. What you tried to put us through to break us up (because YOU didn't like what I was doing with my life) has only made us closer.
You got pissed off because you couldn't control me, but I'll tell you what, you stupid bitch, you don't own me. You don't even know me anymore. I'm wondering if you ever really knew me in the first place.
I doubt you bothered to pay attention. You say we walked away from you, and that you hope we're happy now. I'll tell you what, I AM happy. Choosing the people who don't ridicule me and who don't mind me having my own brain was the best decision I ever made.
Hope your life passes well. You'll regret leaving everyone you knew behind when you're alone and we're still close (like right now.) By the way, thanks for the birthday card. Don't expect one in return.
No love.
-Nami.