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meh, ok its the weekend and I have not bothered to construct the reply I wrote about in my last post. Is it really necessary to do? Am I prepared for the turmoil and disappointment and further pain that I might restart? Probably not. So although occasionally I think of things to write in it I'm not in any great hurry to write back. Sure this person does/did mean a lot to me; but isn't it left best alone rather than disturbed, possibly raking up all sorts of bad feelings/memories etc? I am grateful for everyone's input and support, if collectively you shove me hard enough I might manage to get on with it! In the meantime I shall continue with the trudge that is life down here.
I seem to be living on a constant sleep deprivation game, trying to stay up long enough to socialise at all with my friends online, local and abroad; yet starting my day early enough to achieve some of the wealth of jobs that need addressing associated with the business or myself. This does no credit to my mood or efficiency, which would make me more comfortable with being here.
I feel like going to bed atm, but I know if I do I'll cop it for all the other things I "haven't done". So we head again into an average late night, trying to make social contact with the outside world, only to be faced with the trials of the morning.
Well, I'd better close here, I'm making myself depressed! See y'all sometime, hopefully soon, online or otherwise.
I seem to be living on a constant sleep deprivation game, trying to stay up long enough to socialise at all with my friends online, local and abroad; yet starting my day early enough to achieve some of the wealth of jobs that need addressing associated with the business or myself. This does no credit to my mood or efficiency, which would make me more comfortable with being here.
I feel like going to bed atm, but I know if I do I'll cop it for all the other things I "haven't done". So we head again into an average late night, trying to make social contact with the outside world, only to be faced with the trials of the morning.
Well, I'd better close here, I'm making myself depressed! See y'all sometime, hopefully soon, online or otherwise.