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Errr, I dunno when I last updated, and well, it's just that so much time has passed. I've been stuck studying for exams which are still not over. I had one big exam yesterday and I feel like I can't do it anymore... I want to be free... it's like bein' tied down... I don't get to spend enough time with daughter or hubby... and well, it's just draggin' me down.
Yesterday after the exam I felt like I escaped from prison or something, or that at least I was released on parol and I just didn't remember how to use the world. I suddenly had a bit of real free time and I just wanted to go do things that free people do, and I was like... err... but what????
I finally decided buying stuff for Gal is a good way to spend time...
I've not seen a lot of my friends lately, I feel so detached and yet, this is very important to me... so I try, but well, it's just too much...
Workwise, well, we got the new guy (immediate boss) eventually, and I've got mixed feelings... At first we argued... I dunno how I have this knack to upset people sometimes... even if I didn't try to argue... he got pissed off with me for having too many questions... which I was totally confused about, and he's somewhat a showoff, and has annoying ideas about what he will do when he'd have kids (bring a nanny to raise'em)... and of course, if I don't stay overtime, I ain't entitled to do interesting stuff... which pisses me off cause it's a public service office... it's no hi-tec and I'm working more than what I'm entitled to as a mom, plus am studying... am bein' punished for this? It's not like I ain't doin' my job, or am not workin' part time or anything...
Then, OTOH, he let me take time off to study for my exams and well, that's really what mattered, and he seems to care for us and our needs, even though he barely knows us and I do think that's a good thing. He thinks his team comes first and we deserve to get special treatment and the best equipment... and he's not too mean a guy... so it's not all that awful... see? I'm not like this horrid horrid pessimist all the time... I do try... *grin*
I'm hoping to go see Dean Haglund and Claudia Christian who will be here for a sci-fi conference next week... I still don't have tickets so who knows... these are, essentially, the first *real* sci-fi superstars to come to Israel for a con... and even I, who never has time for cons... and feel a bit weird amongst the sci-fi weirdos (oy vey... I am one... but still...), even I can't stay indifferent to this major event... hey, I had my collage on the official XF site once... way way way back in the day... I was a fanatic... it's gotta count for somethin... *grin*... so, hope I get those tickets... I decided yesterday, after the exam, that I'd studied real hard for a few weeks and it just wasn't the right way to go about it... I understood more when I crammed closer to the event.... so I figured goin' to see this wouldn't hurt... I hope *gulp*
errrms.... Now then, where was I... I want to post some piccies of Gal... that will be in the next post. I need to get a post out before she wakes... *sheesh*... so, if you didn't fall asleeeeeeeepppp... there's piccies in the next post (I hope...)
Yesterday after the exam I felt like I escaped from prison or something, or that at least I was released on parol and I just didn't remember how to use the world. I suddenly had a bit of real free time and I just wanted to go do things that free people do, and I was like... err... but what????
I finally decided buying stuff for Gal is a good way to spend time...
I've not seen a lot of my friends lately, I feel so detached and yet, this is very important to me... so I try, but well, it's just too much...
Workwise, well, we got the new guy (immediate boss) eventually, and I've got mixed feelings... At first we argued... I dunno how I have this knack to upset people sometimes... even if I didn't try to argue... he got pissed off with me for having too many questions... which I was totally confused about, and he's somewhat a showoff, and has annoying ideas about what he will do when he'd have kids (bring a nanny to raise'em)... and of course, if I don't stay overtime, I ain't entitled to do interesting stuff... which pisses me off cause it's a public service office... it's no hi-tec and I'm working more than what I'm entitled to as a mom, plus am studying... am bein' punished for this? It's not like I ain't doin' my job, or am not workin' part time or anything...
Then, OTOH, he let me take time off to study for my exams and well, that's really what mattered, and he seems to care for us and our needs, even though he barely knows us and I do think that's a good thing. He thinks his team comes first and we deserve to get special treatment and the best equipment... and he's not too mean a guy... so it's not all that awful... see? I'm not like this horrid horrid pessimist all the time... I do try... *grin*
I'm hoping to go see Dean Haglund and Claudia Christian who will be here for a sci-fi conference next week... I still don't have tickets so who knows... these are, essentially, the first *real* sci-fi superstars to come to Israel for a con... and even I, who never has time for cons... and feel a bit weird amongst the sci-fi weirdos (oy vey... I am one... but still...), even I can't stay indifferent to this major event... hey, I had my collage on the official XF site once... way way way back in the day... I was a fanatic... it's gotta count for somethin... *grin*... so, hope I get those tickets... I decided yesterday, after the exam, that I'd studied real hard for a few weeks and it just wasn't the right way to go about it... I understood more when I crammed closer to the event.... so I figured goin' to see this wouldn't hurt... I hope *gulp*
errrms.... Now then, where was I... I want to post some piccies of Gal... that will be in the next post. I need to get a post out before she wakes... *sheesh*... so, if you didn't fall asleeeeeeeepppp... there's piccies in the next post (I hope...)