....preggggggy....
Err, yes, still alive... I've not been round LJ much since we moved to oyr new apartment on Nov. 22nd 2006... our computer has been havin' ups and downs and although I do this for a living, I haven't had time to really fix it, plus, I'm sorta less excited about doing this sorta things...
Anyway... hmmm, aside from the fact that we moved... there's some news... I'm... pregnant... again! which is still something I'm tryin' to come to terms with *g* 'though it bein' a planned pregnancy. Somehow in my silly naive mind I'd figured that since I'm not so young, that it will take me longer to conceive, and here I am, only 4 months after we began workin' on it, and poof, I'm prego! Like my little sis said... 'we can't help it that the women in our family are just so fertile...' hell, she was *so* right!
So in fact, yesterday I went to my gyni and all he could see was the embryo sack (???)... still no pulse cause it's just too early. No surprise here... I'm 5 weeks pregnant... and mostly what I can feel are raging hormones making me a nuthead... totally wacked woman, totally impatient and it's only been about a week since I'd discovered the news... I'd think if this is how it's gonna be from now on, I'm bound to murder a few people until the end of the pregnancy *gulp*... *snort*...
It's still a secret mostly, but man, is it a hard secret to keep... I want to tell and yet I'm 'fraid about the reactions at work... 'specially with my new job and all...
I'm pretty worried mostly, which is quite typical, I mean, I'm also excited, and curious to see what will happen, and at the same time I'm terrified... I wonder how Gal will accept a new member of the family, how I'd manage with two kids and a full time, and extremely demanding, job, I wonder if I'd be able to stick to breastfeeding and sorts of other worries... crazy, eh? I should be besides myself and I'm bloody hysterical and to think I'd already given birth to one child... but when you come to think of it... I know what to expect, so maybe that makes it scary - I hope the new kid will be as easy as Gal is... I mean, it's not like Gal is all that easy and all, but she eats well, she sleeps well, she's a happy kid, she's bright and communicative... she is also a very typical 3 year old - pretty rebellious and trying to get her way... using the words "I don't want" a little too often for my liking but nothing out of the ordinary for the age... ach... man, I can't believe there's gonna be another one... I'm curious if it will be a boy or a girl, or... more than one?!! I want to see what s/he will look like... Iwant these 9 months to already be over and to find out what the future will be like... *bahhh* *grin*
And that is all *kisses* to everybody out here - happy new year to all who are celebrating!