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Sometimes I wish it were easy to shut off my emotions and just get over things so I don't have to deal with them. but the thing is, I'm actually glad I can't do that. People who can do that are basically sociopaths, and I'd like to pass on that. Although, sometimes, it's tempting.
I'm glad that I'm sensitive. It makes me a good friend, good girlfriend, sister, and daughter... I think it also makes me a good musician and teacher. Sometimes, though, I take sensitive too far. I think I've gotten a lot closer to a balance of sensitivites and understanding... Really, the trick is communicating sensitivites to the people that hurt my feelings, and avoiding people that don't care. But some people won't communicate even if they do care.
So why keep trying? Why keep hoping? Why not just give up and let things be the way they're going to be? Well, here's to trying.
I've got really cool friends and family, a good job, a nice apartment, some talent, a pretty smile, some brains, and a good heart. Really, things aren't that bad. It's just that all my life, I've wanted to be loved deeply. And I have... But I'm sick of love that doesn't last. And I'm sick of trial and error. I'm sure someone could have a psychological field day with the previous ramblings.
I feel ok. I just want to move on. It shouldn't be this hard! So I need some kind of adjustment. I'll be working on that. In the meantime, thanks for the nice messages, and I hope you all are well.
Kim
I'm glad that I'm sensitive. It makes me a good friend, good girlfriend, sister, and daughter... I think it also makes me a good musician and teacher. Sometimes, though, I take sensitive too far. I think I've gotten a lot closer to a balance of sensitivites and understanding... Really, the trick is communicating sensitivites to the people that hurt my feelings, and avoiding people that don't care. But some people won't communicate even if they do care.
So why keep trying? Why keep hoping? Why not just give up and let things be the way they're going to be? Well, here's to trying.
I've got really cool friends and family, a good job, a nice apartment, some talent, a pretty smile, some brains, and a good heart. Really, things aren't that bad. It's just that all my life, I've wanted to be loved deeply. And I have... But I'm sick of love that doesn't last. And I'm sick of trial and error. I'm sure someone could have a psychological field day with the previous ramblings.
I feel ok. I just want to move on. It shouldn't be this hard! So I need some kind of adjustment. I'll be working on that. In the meantime, thanks for the nice messages, and I hope you all are well.
Kim