XICANA
I went to a presentation of Izalco, this is an area where 8,000 indegenous people of el salvador were massacred. The documentary allowed for a man to remember and tell the story of the genocide. Now people are trying to reclaim that past and reclaim their indegenous roots, en El Salvador it was dangerous to be considered "indio" they would murder you. Going brough so much emotion to my spirit it was really overwhelming.
I was able to feel deeply this wound or piece of me missing that I cant seem to connect to or heal. I felt and feel an emptiness that colonization has left me. An emptiness of my identity, my ancestors, and my spirituality. My spirit cries and will continue to cry and yearn to recall what has been lost. The land that is now called El Salvador is filled with so much pain, it is painful for the people of that land to remember and must struggle through these emotions to reconnect to what is being lost and disappearing. Como gente de decendientes of that region we must preserve waht remains and continue with the struggle to reconnect to what has been lost. This path of rememberence is what makes me a Xicana. XICANA is my identity because it declares not to other people but to myself that I am on a path to reclaim, what they tried to steel, my roots, my spirituality and honor my ancestors.
I was able to feel deeply this wound or piece of me missing that I cant seem to connect to or heal. I felt and feel an emptiness that colonization has left me. An emptiness of my identity, my ancestors, and my spirituality. My spirit cries and will continue to cry and yearn to recall what has been lost. The land that is now called El Salvador is filled with so much pain, it is painful for the people of that land to remember and must struggle through these emotions to reconnect to what is being lost and disappearing. Como gente de decendientes of that region we must preserve waht remains and continue with the struggle to reconnect to what has been lost. This path of rememberence is what makes me a Xicana. XICANA is my identity because it declares not to other people but to myself that I am on a path to reclaim, what they tried to steel, my roots, my spirituality and honor my ancestors.