if i die
i would like everyone to make sure they tell ALL of my secrets i do not want to nor need to die with everyone thinking i was some perfect angel. i have regrets and mis-happens that everyone should know about.
the only thing people will never resolve is how much i truly care for someone.
there are many people i love more than anything in the world. and most of the people i know are more important to me than the air i breathe. i live for them not for me.
adam blake. he's the one person i've known longest outside the family.
4 years and still strong. i love him.
my current girl best friends: stephanie benner, jessica hart, allyssa syllvis, heather putt, and many others. i love them all. a lot more than they think. i try to be real with them as much as possible. they're all so extremely generous in friendship and i love them for it.
my current guy best friends: there's too many to even start listing but they all know who they are.
speck. oh mike speck. he........ he's amazing. i probably love and care for speck more than anyone else. it's unconditional. believe it or not i don't care. and just because i love speck doesn't mean i want to be his girlfriend or anything like that. i don't know how to describe my feelings for that guy. but if i were to lose speck in any way i'd probably beat myself up for it and send myself somewhere where i'd believe i'd belong best.
colin branson. hmm... this guy.. this guy is intense mentally. it's difficult to understand what i mean but this guy has high intelligence whether he wishes to believe he has it or not. i see it in him everyday. he's probably the sweetest, funnest, funniest guy i know. 2nd bbef [best buds ever forever]
tim wilson. i love tim. he's like my older brother that kisses my forehead when i'm dying holds me when i'm crying and hugs me and never lets go. i miss him so much i would probably be in tears by now if i weren't so exhausted physically.
the only thing people will never resolve is how much i truly care for someone.
there are many people i love more than anything in the world. and most of the people i know are more important to me than the air i breathe. i live for them not for me.
adam blake. he's the one person i've known longest outside the family.
4 years and still strong. i love him.
my current girl best friends: stephanie benner, jessica hart, allyssa syllvis, heather putt, and many others. i love them all. a lot more than they think. i try to be real with them as much as possible. they're all so extremely generous in friendship and i love them for it.
my current guy best friends: there's too many to even start listing but they all know who they are.
speck. oh mike speck. he........ he's amazing. i probably love and care for speck more than anyone else. it's unconditional. believe it or not i don't care. and just because i love speck doesn't mean i want to be his girlfriend or anything like that. i don't know how to describe my feelings for that guy. but if i were to lose speck in any way i'd probably beat myself up for it and send myself somewhere where i'd believe i'd belong best.
colin branson. hmm... this guy.. this guy is intense mentally. it's difficult to understand what i mean but this guy has high intelligence whether he wishes to believe he has it or not. i see it in him everyday. he's probably the sweetest, funnest, funniest guy i know. 2nd bbef [best buds ever forever]
tim wilson. i love tim. he's like my older brother that kisses my forehead when i'm dying holds me when i'm crying and hugs me and never lets go. i miss him so much i would probably be in tears by now if i weren't so exhausted physically.