ambivalence
am·biv·a·lence noun 1. uncertainty or fluctuation, esp. when caused by inability to make a choice or by a simultaneous desire to say or do two opposite or conflicting things. 2. Psychology. the coexistence within an individual of positive and negative feelings toward the same person, object, or action, simultaneously drawing him or her in opposite directions.
welcome to my life. or is this just a continuation of quarterlife crisis emo angst bullshit?
i'm antsy. because i am nearing a point where i will have to put a deposit down at a school..and choose.. and start being a 'real' person. i still have not a clue as to where i will be. it nags at me .. to not be sure at all where i will be in the next 6 months. my life is unstable and uncertain.. sometimes i thrive on that. and other times it scares the living shit out of me. and i am still searching for a way to work it all out. i am ambivalent about so many things in my life, and i am constantly feeling pulled in two opposite directions as i try to keep steady on the tightrope between the two.
welcome to my life. or is this just a continuation of quarterlife crisis emo angst bullshit?
i'm antsy. because i am nearing a point where i will have to put a deposit down at a school..and choose.. and start being a 'real' person. i still have not a clue as to where i will be. it nags at me .. to not be sure at all where i will be in the next 6 months. my life is unstable and uncertain.. sometimes i thrive on that. and other times it scares the living shit out of me. and i am still searching for a way to work it all out. i am ambivalent about so many things in my life, and i am constantly feeling pulled in two opposite directions as i try to keep steady on the tightrope between the two.