Too little too late

[verbal_diarrhea]

I thought that I was immune
I believed that I was incapable of this
I honestly ached to forget that this was possible
I always wanted to take the least emotional pathway I could find
I didn't want to make the attachments
I was happy enough being cold
And then there was you
I've never felt so much at once
I've worked so hard on being far away
And now that I've met you
It's a continuous battle to keep these conflicting areas separate
I wish you knew this
So that maybe you could save me
From myself