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Wow...unexpected emotional night. The other day I decided to clean some things out of storage containers that I have to get them ready in case we find a place. There was a computer disc in one of the containers with my roomies handwriting on it "Bridget's Disc O' Stuff" I decided tonight that I would check out what it contained, thinking it was only files from my days at Lesley. So I am sitting here...listening to music that I want to play at the Wedding (already being sappy) and I open it up. It has a bunch of photos of Amy, Iris, and I playing in the tub after Chase's funeral. THe memory of that time with the girls is so bittersweet because we were acting ridiculous and were so close but were experiencing the saddest moments in our lives. There was also a file marked "Love Letters"...
Weeks after Chase passed I moved out of my house and lost my old e-mail address in the process so before we moved I copied all my e-mails that meant something to me from ERic into this file. I forgot about it!. I first started to cry when I read e-mails from just a few weeks before Chase died...Like on June 6th Eric wrote me about plans to go fishing and Tim's upcoming bachelor party. He was so happy I could hear it in his words. Then there is one from the day after I turned 21 and I write....
"I had a wonderful birthday, simply because I got to see you, I could have crawled into you and stayed there forever :) I wish I had brought a camera last night but that's o.k. I will always remember you singing to me :) (The guys sang to me on stage at the Dog)I'm sitting at my house right now waiting for Chase to come and get me...11:30 my ass it's 1:10 :) But that's Chase for you...."
I actually had a really nice time with Chase that day. He drove me back to school but we had to stop at Berkley first so he could registrar or do financial stuff. I remember getting low and having to stop at CVS to eat cause he dragged me all over the place. We talked...I remember talking about his car and selling it to his dad or something. I really just remember being next to him and feeling important that I was with him cause Chase was the kind of person that people took notice to. The grief comes so strong sometimes.
Hey Amy or Iris do you still have that picture of Chase in Boston with the leaves or flowers all around him? I would love a copy of it.
Sigh...there are so many memories flooding through me now. I printed the letters out cause I don't trust old computer discs.
Iris had you met Chase yet on September 7th 2000? If you did I am positive we talked about you...
OK I am going to go and look at some old negatives now, find old photos I might have forgotten about.
Love
Weeks after Chase passed I moved out of my house and lost my old e-mail address in the process so before we moved I copied all my e-mails that meant something to me from ERic into this file. I forgot about it!. I first started to cry when I read e-mails from just a few weeks before Chase died...Like on June 6th Eric wrote me about plans to go fishing and Tim's upcoming bachelor party. He was so happy I could hear it in his words. Then there is one from the day after I turned 21 and I write....
"I had a wonderful birthday, simply because I got to see you, I could have crawled into you and stayed there forever :) I wish I had brought a camera last night but that's o.k. I will always remember you singing to me :) (The guys sang to me on stage at the Dog)I'm sitting at my house right now waiting for Chase to come and get me...11:30 my ass it's 1:10 :) But that's Chase for you...."
I actually had a really nice time with Chase that day. He drove me back to school but we had to stop at Berkley first so he could registrar or do financial stuff. I remember getting low and having to stop at CVS to eat cause he dragged me all over the place. We talked...I remember talking about his car and selling it to his dad or something. I really just remember being next to him and feeling important that I was with him cause Chase was the kind of person that people took notice to. The grief comes so strong sometimes.
Hey Amy or Iris do you still have that picture of Chase in Boston with the leaves or flowers all around him? I would love a copy of it.
Sigh...there are so many memories flooding through me now. I printed the letters out cause I don't trust old computer discs.
Iris had you met Chase yet on September 7th 2000? If you did I am positive we talked about you...
OK I am going to go and look at some old negatives now, find old photos I might have forgotten about.
Love