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I hate me right now.
Apparently I'm not the only one that hates me.
I came back last night becuz if I had gone home right then I would have hurt myself.
Not that anyone cares...
But I didn't want to do that to myself.
For once I thought about me...and not about what other people wanted me to do.
If no one wants me around...fine... Fuck you. I don't want anyone around either.
I want to go so far away from here.
So far that no one would ever have to see me again and I wouldn't have to feel this way anymore.
People probably don't even read my entries anymore cuz they think oh she's just depressed and she'll get over it.
I told you not to quit only becuz it's the easy way out.
I am THIS close to NOT taking my own advice.
However, I probably won't...becuz I'm weak and I can't just take care of it.
Why don't someone else do it? I'm sure you want to.
Apparently I'm not the only one that hates me.
I came back last night becuz if I had gone home right then I would have hurt myself.
Not that anyone cares...
But I didn't want to do that to myself.
For once I thought about me...and not about what other people wanted me to do.
If no one wants me around...fine... Fuck you. I don't want anyone around either.
I want to go so far away from here.
So far that no one would ever have to see me again and I wouldn't have to feel this way anymore.
People probably don't even read my entries anymore cuz they think oh she's just depressed and she'll get over it.
I told you not to quit only becuz it's the easy way out.
I am THIS close to NOT taking my own advice.
However, I probably won't...becuz I'm weak and I can't just take care of it.
Why don't someone else do it? I'm sure you want to.