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I saw my Dad earlier. Things are getting no better and are slowly declining. The other day he assaulted one of his caregivers, Margarita. He feels completely justified and refuses to acknowledge how his behaviour is completely wrong. I dropped off the "report" which Dr Firestone sent to him. All he sent my Dad is photocopies of the questionnaire which my Dad filled out. He included absolutely no observations, no analysis, nothing. It's a total joke. He wanted to borrow my phone to call this sheister to see what the protocol is to prove "who wins." In other words, which doctors report bears more weight. As far as my Mom and I are concerned, Dr Bierley, the Kaiser doctor, "wins." He told me to shove my phone up my jumper and not to bring it again. Next he said he was getting close to telling me to stop coming and in the next breath wanted to know when I would be visiting again.
I ask myself why I'm not more like the daughter he expects? In the end, I think, it's because I'm a lot like him. David always took Dad's abuse while I would scream back. David was dutiful while I was disobedient. As I grow older, I see more and more how I am like my Dad. Luckily I have some of my Mom in me to balance things out. I'm opinionated and argumentative just like my Dad and we always clash because of it.
I ask myself why I'm not more like the daughter he expects? In the end, I think, it's because I'm a lot like him. David always took Dad's abuse while I would scream back. David was dutiful while I was disobedient. As I grow older, I see more and more how I am like my Dad. Luckily I have some of my Mom in me to balance things out. I'm opinionated and argumentative just like my Dad and we always clash because of it.