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I don't even know where to start. I haven't updated with anything relatively important in a long while. I guess I just have been busy with school, work and a few friends that I have made and lost along the way. The last clump of journal entries were dramatic and were from a time after Estevan left me. I am over that and realize now that it was one of the best things that ever happened to me. Christopher was an awesome person but not an awesome boyfriend. It was in our relationship that I realized that I have to take a stand for myself, start living for myself, be completely selfish for once. I have always been a kind and caring person but never realized how much I let myself down. So, Then there was Jordan. It seemed like for the first time in a long time I was truely happy. I was still a little leary of starting anything serious. I had said that this time I was going to be careful. Still, Everything seemed right and we were boyfriend and girlfriend and I was happy and he seemed it too. We spent alot of time together and I don't regret any minute of it. I love him. He decided that he still loved someone else and that was the end of our dating relationship. We were only together for a month so most people would think it was kind of ambitious for me to love him but I haven't felt anything like what I feel when I am with him. I think I will take a break because I fear being completely ruined for love, being let down like I have in the last few months. I know someday when I least expect it I will find it.
School hasn't been that great for me again this semester. I feel like my classes get in the way. I am the kind of person that has to have a passion for something in order for it to be of any importance to them. School isn't where it's at. I think after this semester I will take a break and make some money, maybe get a full time job @ Super Walmart for a while.
My arts and crafts are where my passion is today. I have this crazy urge to make something, anything. I have been making purses and putting them on ebay to try to save up some extra money for my trip to 'Sippi. I already bought my plane ticket. I am going to go see Dustin when he gets back from Iraq in June. I fly into New Orleans on June 12th and we are going to spend a few days there and then head to Tennessee for Bonarroo, Music and Arts festival. Then a long road trip back here. It should be fun. I had a bad dream that there was a hurricane when I was visiting there though and then I get on to check out the weather there for that time of the year and guess what? Hurricane Season! CRAZY. Still, I can't wait. I guess that is all for now. I have today off and I should clean my room and photograph and list my next round of purses on Ebay, I will post a link later!
School hasn't been that great for me again this semester. I feel like my classes get in the way. I am the kind of person that has to have a passion for something in order for it to be of any importance to them. School isn't where it's at. I think after this semester I will take a break and make some money, maybe get a full time job @ Super Walmart for a while.
My arts and crafts are where my passion is today. I have this crazy urge to make something, anything. I have been making purses and putting them on ebay to try to save up some extra money for my trip to 'Sippi. I already bought my plane ticket. I am going to go see Dustin when he gets back from Iraq in June. I fly into New Orleans on June 12th and we are going to spend a few days there and then head to Tennessee for Bonarroo, Music and Arts festival. Then a long road trip back here. It should be fun. I had a bad dream that there was a hurricane when I was visiting there though and then I get on to check out the weather there for that time of the year and guess what? Hurricane Season! CRAZY. Still, I can't wait. I guess that is all for now. I have today off and I should clean my room and photograph and list my next round of purses on Ebay, I will post a link later!