life aint kind
well things tend to unfold i guess.
and i had a huge arguement with my mom last night.
she wants to come to Los Angeles with the band, and i told her i dont want her to be there.
she cried and told me i was inconciderate, and i felt really guilty.
i know my mother is going to do whatever she can to go to our show on march 2nd, and i dont want her to be there though. We are playing at a bar and i dont know bars + moms = just dont fit well. Fuck i am really sad these days, lacking motivation among other things.
I had a dream the last night, and i was sitting in this beat up hotel in LA right before the show (taking my 15 minutes of mental preparation). And Karen O from the yeah yeah yeahs kicks open the door and sits down on the couch with me.
"Jordy more will be revealed after tonight. You have to keep searching for what you really fuckin want. . . . .You have this force that no one can take from you." I looked at her in her flashy gold outfit and i was in shock. I cried and told her i want to be a rockstar not a lawyer, and we looked eachother in the eyes for about 5 minutes. She could see through me like X-Ray Vision. "My lonesomeness and pressure from my father is killing me. He doesn't want me to go for my wildest dreams." And karen repeated to me something like////"tell him no no no." It was one of the coolest dreams i think i have ever had. It is definetlly a sign. I woke up this morning with dried tears on my cheeks-----
and i had a huge arguement with my mom last night.
she wants to come to Los Angeles with the band, and i told her i dont want her to be there.
she cried and told me i was inconciderate, and i felt really guilty.
i know my mother is going to do whatever she can to go to our show on march 2nd, and i dont want her to be there though. We are playing at a bar and i dont know bars + moms = just dont fit well. Fuck i am really sad these days, lacking motivation among other things.
I had a dream the last night, and i was sitting in this beat up hotel in LA right before the show (taking my 15 minutes of mental preparation). And Karen O from the yeah yeah yeahs kicks open the door and sits down on the couch with me.
"Jordy more will be revealed after tonight. You have to keep searching for what you really fuckin want. . . . .You have this force that no one can take from you." I looked at her in her flashy gold outfit and i was in shock. I cried and told her i want to be a rockstar not a lawyer, and we looked eachother in the eyes for about 5 minutes. She could see through me like X-Ray Vision. "My lonesomeness and pressure from my father is killing me. He doesn't want me to go for my wildest dreams." And karen repeated to me something like////"tell him no no no." It was one of the coolest dreams i think i have ever had. It is definetlly a sign. I woke up this morning with dried tears on my cheeks-----