Simple Twist Of Fate
We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.
Anaïs Nin
In some ways, I was an advanced teenager. I understood people I ways that other people didn't. This was something that made lost boys fall in love with me and most everyone else despise me. This, unfortunately, was also something that led to me to believe I was smarter than everyone else. Naturally, most people didn't buy into it and called me on my bullshit behind my back. What these people saw was someone who used a condescending tone of voice and lacked the clout with which to justify using such a tone. And of course, this pissed them off. I may have been an intuitive person with a decent understanding of the human mind, but what I blindly lacked was the ability to see fault in the way in which I behaved toward other people. Just because I was smart I had subconsciously refused to acknowledge that other people could be similarly "advanced" in different (but equal) areas.
So I suppose what I'm try to admit here is that I was the one who made everyone despise me and take responsibility for that, even if it's several years after the fact. I misjudged people as a teenager and refused to give credit where it was due, and I want to offer an apology to all those people (who will probably never read this). And because you were able to see the fault in me that I could not, and because you had intelligence and value that I never gave you credit for, you were all more advanced than I fancied myself. And for that, my hat's off to you.
Anaïs Nin
In some ways, I was an advanced teenager. I understood people I ways that other people didn't. This was something that made lost boys fall in love with me and most everyone else despise me. This, unfortunately, was also something that led to me to believe I was smarter than everyone else. Naturally, most people didn't buy into it and called me on my bullshit behind my back. What these people saw was someone who used a condescending tone of voice and lacked the clout with which to justify using such a tone. And of course, this pissed them off. I may have been an intuitive person with a decent understanding of the human mind, but what I blindly lacked was the ability to see fault in the way in which I behaved toward other people. Just because I was smart I had subconsciously refused to acknowledge that other people could be similarly "advanced" in different (but equal) areas.
So I suppose what I'm try to admit here is that I was the one who made everyone despise me and take responsibility for that, even if it's several years after the fact. I misjudged people as a teenager and refused to give credit where it was due, and I want to offer an apology to all those people (who will probably never read this). And because you were able to see the fault in me that I could not, and because you had intelligence and value that I never gave you credit for, you were all more advanced than I fancied myself. And for that, my hat's off to you.