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my posts will most likely become more sporadic then usual as i have no internet at my studio and i'm taking my little computer with me today.
my apartment on campus is empty, save for my computer, printer, phone, and an enormous pile of mahria's things. i came to campus motivated to get everything out today. now, i just want to walk away.
like so many things right now, i'd just like to turn away. the real world is nice like that, you don't look back or forward. it's about getting the present done. i can do that.
i just discovered that my best friend from home is moving to detroit today. the last tangible part of my teenage life in helena is finally leaving. perhaps that's what i'm so afraid of. picking up the last tangible bits of my life at LC and handing my keys over to sandi. i don't want to be purged so quickly from the system.
for now, i'll write sandi an e-mail and tell her that i still have things in my apartment. that it will probably take until the end of june to get everything out. it's not a desperate thing; i'm not clinging to college. i just want to hold on a bit longer.
my apartment on campus is empty, save for my computer, printer, phone, and an enormous pile of mahria's things. i came to campus motivated to get everything out today. now, i just want to walk away.
like so many things right now, i'd just like to turn away. the real world is nice like that, you don't look back or forward. it's about getting the present done. i can do that.
i just discovered that my best friend from home is moving to detroit today. the last tangible part of my teenage life in helena is finally leaving. perhaps that's what i'm so afraid of. picking up the last tangible bits of my life at LC and handing my keys over to sandi. i don't want to be purged so quickly from the system.
for now, i'll write sandi an e-mail and tell her that i still have things in my apartment. that it will probably take until the end of june to get everything out. it's not a desperate thing; i'm not clinging to college. i just want to hold on a bit longer.