Same as always
I am getting ready for organic chem this afternoon, because i have class at 6pm. Aside from that, Time came over yesterday, we listened to a lot of old music we used to like, played a little guitar, and i bummed around the house.
Tim asked me yesterday if i was pissed off, depressed, or just how i felt in general. We had been listening to the aforementioned music, and it used to be i put that those cds on when i was down. I had told him that I didnt feel up, didnt feel down, I really didnt feel much of anything. I have been blah for far too long. I have my plans down, which are good, and i am ready to stick to them. One more semester of organic, 1 mcat, then off to med school. Good plan i believe. At the same time, i am not satisfied. I can get awesome grades, do very well, hang out each night with people, party, do any number of things, but I'm not really satisfied. I dont get that "thrill" when i do things like i used to. It used to be nothing, just drive someplace, but i would at least feel some sort of excitement, some sort of thrill. Now, nothing.
I dont mean to complain, Ive gone to quite a few interseting places, and have had friends that have really look out for me, and i really feel like a jerk for saying just that; that i feel kinda empty inside. I miss the smell of cut grass and the loud smack of leather on leather when a baseball is caught in a glove. Hmmm, I guess I need to get back into things, maybe get a change of place to meet some new people, perhaps that will help.
Anyhow, ill leave it at that
Chris
Tim asked me yesterday if i was pissed off, depressed, or just how i felt in general. We had been listening to the aforementioned music, and it used to be i put that those cds on when i was down. I had told him that I didnt feel up, didnt feel down, I really didnt feel much of anything. I have been blah for far too long. I have my plans down, which are good, and i am ready to stick to them. One more semester of organic, 1 mcat, then off to med school. Good plan i believe. At the same time, i am not satisfied. I can get awesome grades, do very well, hang out each night with people, party, do any number of things, but I'm not really satisfied. I dont get that "thrill" when i do things like i used to. It used to be nothing, just drive someplace, but i would at least feel some sort of excitement, some sort of thrill. Now, nothing.
I dont mean to complain, Ive gone to quite a few interseting places, and have had friends that have really look out for me, and i really feel like a jerk for saying just that; that i feel kinda empty inside. I miss the smell of cut grass and the loud smack of leather on leather when a baseball is caught in a glove. Hmmm, I guess I need to get back into things, maybe get a change of place to meet some new people, perhaps that will help.
Anyhow, ill leave it at that
Chris