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for the first time in a while I am lost, I don't know what to do or feel other than be scared. Someone whom means the absolute world to me may be expecting the worst in terms of health and I just don't know what to do. I have hid my feelings on the subject for a while and have offered support, but if I lose him to something like this I will completely lose it myself. The big C is a scary thing and I don't know how to deal with it, let alone when it is someone else.

Fuck, something has got to break.