quick up date
Things are going well on my end of the internet. Still working my ass off, still loving Griff, and still a bit nuts. I miss having time for my friends but I guess that's part of life right now. I applied for another promotion at the job...hopefully this one will pan out. The depot that I orgiionally bid for a Sales Super job at has no Local General Manager, they only have a Sales Super (the guy who beat me for the position). The S.S there is currently in training to become the LGM and is now trying to get me to be his sales super. He's really fighting for me to get the job because i'm 'nurturing and gentle, and can motivate others without being harsh or confrontational'. Heh. Hopefully this time the fates will smile on my ass. My fucking psudo-asthma is pissing me off. I completely refuse to admit that i have allergy induced asthma. So i just eat about 10 benedryl a day and call it a wash. I probably shouldn't be using my cat as a pillow, that might be adding to the psudo-allergy-asthma issue. Eh, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Thats right! Straighten up and fly right lungs! I'm kinda in a weird head space as of late though regarding M. Him and I don't speak much anymore....barely once a week. Its kinda odd. I love the hell out of him (not in love with him, but love him cause he was a big part of my life) and it sucks ass that he's happy with this twit. I had to clean out my shit from our/his storage unit last week with Griff and it was awful. Definately a crash course down memory lane. I just miss him. He was a great friend. On one hand life with him was great....no worries, no money pressures, and i got to do what ever i wanted..but him and I wern't going to work out. The age difference finially got between us, well that and the fact that i'm not a breeder. It really was a deal breaker. Plus there was no romance and no sex anymore. It felt like I was his best bud, not his girl. He never made me feel deisred or sexy and being the vain narcissistic bitch that i am i need that. Life with Griff is the exact opposite. He doesn't dote on me, or lap me in luxury but the sex is fucking amazing! I feel totally safe and comfortable with him. And sometimes he does pamper me....and he doesn't want offspring! I love being with him and i feel confident and beautiful when im with him. I'm lucky to have him no doubt about it, but I miss the shit outa M. M's happy with his new chicky. Shes older and has two offsprings from a previous marriage and he's perfectly happy playing dad. I honestly wish the best of luck to him. I just wish the fucker would keep in touch, but I guess all things must go their natural way and it;s just time for me to get my ass over it. My fam's still bizzaro. Mom's being very mommish, dad is still dad and my sister is maturing. Her and her ghetto fab friends always hang around the baby...well she's three, but she'll always be the baby...and we keep telling her watch what you say around her, she'll pick it up. My sis said that would never happen...heh. My mother called me snorting and lauging hystaricially because of something my niece said. Destiny (my niece) has a small fish tank with lots of fishies that she watches, and feeds, and talks to daily. The other day she yells and calls my sis to come look at the tank. There was a dead fish floating on top and the three year old says 'look ma, that nigga is floatin!' Yea, she wont pick up on your hood rat lingo.......riiiiiiight