south trip
Because I don't need a reason to be happy. And I don't need to be comfterabld either,. Life is about not knowing, about surprises, about having to adapt to new situations without even knowing about them. And I don't have to like it, or be okay with it, I just have to learn how to be happy during it. And it scared me to be in a room with those 3 girls that used to be my friends on the south. It scared me not because they were mean, but because of how nice they were. Because we drifted apart and I didn't want us too, because they stayed close and I was out. Because I wasn't comfterable, because I wasn't with friends and I couldn't be myself. And now on the second night in this room it's okay, it's better. We talked, lil and I, Shan a little too.
Day one and we toured a university, i wore my marshmallow jacket and my grandpas white scarf from Paris. It was good, laur is very nice, she notices if people are left out. And I feel that I might have friends now, I just read too much into things and feel like I'm annoying or they're annoyed with me when they aren't. Stav is my best friend I think, Han has drifted away with R and her Rach. It's good here, it's okay. And that's good. It has to be.
Day one and we toured a university, i wore my marshmallow jacket and my grandpas white scarf from Paris. It was good, laur is very nice, she notices if people are left out. And I feel that I might have friends now, I just read too much into things and feel like I'm annoying or they're annoyed with me when they aren't. Stav is my best friend I think, Han has drifted away with R and her Rach. It's good here, it's okay. And that's good. It has to be.