Pancake house
.. So this isn't gonna be all poetic and pretty, hopefully, Idk how I get.
But so Jess has never been to this really good pancake house so I told her we'd go tommorow and to invite a bunch of people who are also in summer school.
And so everyone couldn't go, except for rose and this other girl me that bothers the hell out of me.
I mean, I'm civil with rose now. But like, I always avoid having to hangout with her out of study period. You know, maybe she did cjange. Maybe she isn't as mean and a bad friend that uses people anymore. I don't think she is anymore, but I honestly don't care.
She could be the nicest person in the world now, but I just still don't wanna be friends with her anymore period. You know I gave her many chances, and freshman year was hard enough. And now I'm not friends with her, and barely with ari.
And I just can't put myself back in any friendship like that anymore. Jess has a bad past with her too, but she is acting like it's ok. I wanna bring it up to her just to tell her how I'm uncomfteravle going with rose somewhere but I mean that's rude of me. And it would make me a lower person.
I don't think anything bad about rose now. I just don't wanna be her friend.
Ugh k whatever, anyways, I've been trying to eat healthier and pancakes won't help. But like all week and last week I stated writing down everything I eat and putting the times and all. And I found a few types of pills that make you not hungery I think so I've been taking those daily.
I'll try to eat less tommorow...
Ugh I just don't wanna go to sit at a resteraunt with rose and Emily. It would be better if more people were going.. But they're not. And idk. I just don't wanna be with her. I don't hate her or wish her harm. I just can't be friends with someone that hurt me like that once before.