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I am afraid to become bitter
the thought of being consumed with something so negative frightens me to the end of my wit.
i think there is a killing time on the horizon. Maybe i'll take all this anger and regret and build a wicker man out of it. (thanks mike) and hopefully, in one catharitic release, it will burn to ash. and hopefully, just hopefully, i wont choke on it. and maybe, i'll even get to taste again.
Things are better. Incredibly so. but like insects beneath my skin, i feel it still there. crawling.
Im not sure if im sad or just thinky.
its really nice to be thinky, even if this kind of shake up is required to make it happen.
i think its time for an old side of me to resurface. we people are multifaceted after all.
i do believe this side is missed. (by me as well as others) i like the person i am. but i can be better. happier. stronger.....
hopefully i can be strong..
enough............................
the thought of being consumed with something so negative frightens me to the end of my wit.
i think there is a killing time on the horizon. Maybe i'll take all this anger and regret and build a wicker man out of it. (thanks mike) and hopefully, in one catharitic release, it will burn to ash. and hopefully, just hopefully, i wont choke on it. and maybe, i'll even get to taste again.
Things are better. Incredibly so. but like insects beneath my skin, i feel it still there. crawling.
Im not sure if im sad or just thinky.
its really nice to be thinky, even if this kind of shake up is required to make it happen.
i think its time for an old side of me to resurface. we people are multifaceted after all.
i do believe this side is missed. (by me as well as others) i like the person i am. but i can be better. happier. stronger.....
hopefully i can be strong..
enough............................