I feel alive.
But I want to die. I think I am getting sick...grr.
Been doing some self reflection the last couple of days and I am feeling something stir inside me. I can only discribe it like electricity. On the verge of something, something great.
I am amazing. A force to be reconed with. A girl who is deserving. A woman who is self sufficiant and needs no other to gain what she wants. But some of what she wants only another is able to give.
I learned I do alot of hiding, hiding behind perceived self confidence and showmanship. I long to feel vulnerable. To be swept up in emotion and passion.
I am not seeing this as a set back to my recent decision to be me, to be secure, to be less dramatic. I have to honor these feelings and see them for what they are. To not allow them to overwhelm me but view them as clouds in my sky...simply watching them move accross my vision.
Been doing some self reflection the last couple of days and I am feeling something stir inside me. I can only discribe it like electricity. On the verge of something, something great.
I am amazing. A force to be reconed with. A girl who is deserving. A woman who is self sufficiant and needs no other to gain what she wants. But some of what she wants only another is able to give.
I learned I do alot of hiding, hiding behind perceived self confidence and showmanship. I long to feel vulnerable. To be swept up in emotion and passion.
I am not seeing this as a set back to my recent decision to be me, to be secure, to be less dramatic. I have to honor these feelings and see them for what they are. To not allow them to overwhelm me but view them as clouds in my sky...simply watching them move accross my vision.