This day.
The day you died, my heart felt like ash, the whole world stopped, from that day on i knew the world had changed, for the worst. not only waking up, and knowing you never will be here again. people say it'll be okay, but that just tells you they've never felt the way you do, when you lose someone you've loved, been with them, laughed,talked. not having you here is the hardest thing i've had to put up with, tomorrow will be the year 2 of you not being here with us. lonelyness just fills me up, remebering the good times just makes you feel sad, so not thinking of you makes me feel better. the good times are still rolling. and thinking that one day when i wake up, you'll be there at the table, eating your toast. i'll hug you and you'll wondering where've youve been for this great welcome. only to wake up and not see you, ever. i wonder how my family in 100 mile and merrtitt are dealing with this. for the ones who didnt even get to know her. do they still feel sad, even though they didnt know their own family member? these songs are reminding me of last summer. why cant i forget you? why do i still want you? the only hope we have now is the future, of which comes day by day. when your down. theres nowhere else to go but up, or so they say.