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I went home to my moms house today. And I layed down in my old bed.. I started to think-- and I started to think about the past
And all the scars I've gathered on the way, and wear as badges to remind myself how real it all is..
Even the good memories hurt-- especially about Aubrey. She was the one girl in my life I cared the most about. Once I lost her, life was unbearable.. Then I met Blake, and I was born again into a new person. A little after that ( on new years to be exact ) She came into my work. I had nothing planned for New Years, and she asks me if I'd like to spend my New Years with her. WITH HER-- I was weak without her.. I couldnt bear take another breath until I saw her again. And right then, right there I could finally feel the air fill my chest.
We layed in my car outside her house, and listened to the Ministry of Sound, and talked about our new lives. Her new bf Dustin, and my mistress rave.
As I fell asleep in her arms that night, she kissed me. Just like a glimpse of heaven from the skies above. She wrapped me in a blanket and went inside to sleep.
Days later she crushed me again
This was over a year ago
--and I haven't trusted a single girl since
Laying in bed, I felt miserable-- I felt like dying-- I couldn't breathe, I was without her. The entire time we were together, she lied to me, snuck around behind my back, fed me stories to get me to believe in a false reality..
She destroyed who I was.. yet I still think about her.
"You're a liar, you're a cheater, I don't want you back"
Yeah, I think about her.. I think about how I'm better off alone
And all the scars I've gathered on the way, and wear as badges to remind myself how real it all is..
Even the good memories hurt-- especially about Aubrey. She was the one girl in my life I cared the most about. Once I lost her, life was unbearable.. Then I met Blake, and I was born again into a new person. A little after that ( on new years to be exact ) She came into my work. I had nothing planned for New Years, and she asks me if I'd like to spend my New Years with her. WITH HER-- I was weak without her.. I couldnt bear take another breath until I saw her again. And right then, right there I could finally feel the air fill my chest.
We layed in my car outside her house, and listened to the Ministry of Sound, and talked about our new lives. Her new bf Dustin, and my mistress rave.
As I fell asleep in her arms that night, she kissed me. Just like a glimpse of heaven from the skies above. She wrapped me in a blanket and went inside to sleep.
Days later she crushed me again
This was over a year ago
--and I haven't trusted a single girl since
Laying in bed, I felt miserable-- I felt like dying-- I couldn't breathe, I was without her. The entire time we were together, she lied to me, snuck around behind my back, fed me stories to get me to believe in a false reality..
She destroyed who I was.. yet I still think about her.
"You're a liar, you're a cheater, I don't want you back"
Yeah, I think about her.. I think about how I'm better off alone