Homosexuality is NOT a sin!
Hey everyone,
I'm sorry for not being as active as I want to be. I've just been going through somethings (financial, sexual, mental, emotional, spiritual, etc).
Wednesday to Friday was spent in church. We had this 'sozo' conference and we learned about the Bibical principles of healing and got to practice it as well.
On Thursday, I just surrendered myself to God and prayed "Father, I hand my homosexuality to you. Father, if you think this is wrong, please take it away and heal me. Your will be done and not mine, Father!"
I then ran up to put the cup of tea in the sink (its a small church and the pastors live in it). I had and as I came down, my pastor's wife had an empty cup in her hands and I offered to bring it up to the sink for her. She joined me upstairs as I was washing the cup and said "Venkat... now that we're alone, we can now be honest with each other. Why do you have an earing on your left ear?"
According to her, I those who wear it on the left ear are gay. I told her it was the opposite and she refused. This other guy from the team who came to present from Germany came up and we spoke about it. I told them I was gay and proud of who I am for God created me this way. I then told her that I was more transgendered for I feel like a lady inside a man's body. We talked about it and that guy offered me a word of prophecy- that the most blessed part of my life would be when I 'become' a man.
According to the postor's wife, if someone says they're smoking and stuff, she could say indirectly that its wrong and say that "The body is the temple of the spirit," but when it came to something so "cataglorical" as homosexuality, it clearly states that its wrong. I told her that I wasn't feeling uncomfortable or anything about the talk (I really wasn't)! She talked about channeling that feminine aspect of me in other ways. I decided I would, rather convinced intelectually that God doesn't accept homosexuality.
We prayed, banished and bound 'spirits'. After we did, I took out my earings, thinking I should just live an entirely masculine life (no accesories, etc). The pastor's wife remarked "I see you arn't wearing your sparkly bracelet today". "Yeah.. it doesn't match this hawaiian shirt I'm wearing today," I remarked. She then replied "Oh well.. I thought something touched you today... I guess you've cleaned your nails because the polish was going away." I agreed to this and we giggled. We then hugged each other, and I went away, acting more "masculine". She claimed my voice was already getting deeper.
So yeah, Friday (yesterday) went well- we bonded much better and she said "I don't know why, but I no longer feel confronted by that spirit. I was before, but I still loved you." At the end of the day, I hugged her, and called her "mom" and the pastor "dad". Don't ask me why- I don't know! I felt like a child again and throught the day, I had this inner feeling saying that being gay isn't wrong at all. I just pushed it away, thinking it was wrong, that it was the 'devil'.
Anyway, as I lay in my bed today, trying to study (even after praying), I thought about this gay thing. I then started feeling a little depressed and my intuition said again that this is just a lie- that being gay is wrong! I then thought of all those times when I listened to my intuition- when I read for others, in my own life, and how things have been spot on. I'm someone who actually lectures on intuition and the channels of divine communication and have seen countless healings throught my life in my healing practice. I firmly believe that God speaks to us through our intuition.
So where to do stand today? I FIRMLY know that my prayer has been answered- God sent me that exprience of my pastor's wife and that guest lecturer so to give me a feel of the entire thing. He then spoke to me through my intuition telling me that being gay is alright. He led me through the entire thing, always close to me, repeating constantly, tiring not when I ignored Him. Wisdom is experienced, isn't it? If I had been short sighted, I would've thought the experience with the postor and the guest would be God's way of saying "Yes, being gay is wrong!". I just thank Him and testify His love, grace, and his wonderful ways of answering our prayers!
This has brought me closer to Him. I can truly call him "Father" and MEAN it and FEEL it in every cell! For the fincial problems I'm going through (I don't have anything in hand and in my bank account- except for a few cents in hand- which I thank God for), I know He'll provide for me. After all, He's Daddy!! :)
So why does the Bible talk about homosexuality as a sin? I don't know. But that doesn't matter. I've never felt this close to Daddy! :)
Brothers and sisters, those who're going through what I have and what others have, I would like you to know that God didn't create you for you to burn in hell. Go ahead, do your own research and trust your intuition- it never lies because God never lies!
Peace be with you and yours!
I'm sorry for not being as active as I want to be. I've just been going through somethings (financial, sexual, mental, emotional, spiritual, etc).
Wednesday to Friday was spent in church. We had this 'sozo' conference and we learned about the Bibical principles of healing and got to practice it as well.
On Thursday, I just surrendered myself to God and prayed "Father, I hand my homosexuality to you. Father, if you think this is wrong, please take it away and heal me. Your will be done and not mine, Father!"
I then ran up to put the cup of tea in the sink (its a small church and the pastors live in it). I had and as I came down, my pastor's wife had an empty cup in her hands and I offered to bring it up to the sink for her. She joined me upstairs as I was washing the cup and said "Venkat... now that we're alone, we can now be honest with each other. Why do you have an earing on your left ear?"
According to her, I those who wear it on the left ear are gay. I told her it was the opposite and she refused. This other guy from the team who came to present from Germany came up and we spoke about it. I told them I was gay and proud of who I am for God created me this way. I then told her that I was more transgendered for I feel like a lady inside a man's body. We talked about it and that guy offered me a word of prophecy- that the most blessed part of my life would be when I 'become' a man.
According to the postor's wife, if someone says they're smoking and stuff, she could say indirectly that its wrong and say that "The body is the temple of the spirit," but when it came to something so "cataglorical" as homosexuality, it clearly states that its wrong. I told her that I wasn't feeling uncomfortable or anything about the talk (I really wasn't)! She talked about channeling that feminine aspect of me in other ways. I decided I would, rather convinced intelectually that God doesn't accept homosexuality.
We prayed, banished and bound 'spirits'. After we did, I took out my earings, thinking I should just live an entirely masculine life (no accesories, etc). The pastor's wife remarked "I see you arn't wearing your sparkly bracelet today". "Yeah.. it doesn't match this hawaiian shirt I'm wearing today," I remarked. She then replied "Oh well.. I thought something touched you today... I guess you've cleaned your nails because the polish was going away." I agreed to this and we giggled. We then hugged each other, and I went away, acting more "masculine". She claimed my voice was already getting deeper.
So yeah, Friday (yesterday) went well- we bonded much better and she said "I don't know why, but I no longer feel confronted by that spirit. I was before, but I still loved you." At the end of the day, I hugged her, and called her "mom" and the pastor "dad". Don't ask me why- I don't know! I felt like a child again and throught the day, I had this inner feeling saying that being gay isn't wrong at all. I just pushed it away, thinking it was wrong, that it was the 'devil'.
Anyway, as I lay in my bed today, trying to study (even after praying), I thought about this gay thing. I then started feeling a little depressed and my intuition said again that this is just a lie- that being gay is wrong! I then thought of all those times when I listened to my intuition- when I read for others, in my own life, and how things have been spot on. I'm someone who actually lectures on intuition and the channels of divine communication and have seen countless healings throught my life in my healing practice. I firmly believe that God speaks to us through our intuition.
So where to do stand today? I FIRMLY know that my prayer has been answered- God sent me that exprience of my pastor's wife and that guest lecturer so to give me a feel of the entire thing. He then spoke to me through my intuition telling me that being gay is alright. He led me through the entire thing, always close to me, repeating constantly, tiring not when I ignored Him. Wisdom is experienced, isn't it? If I had been short sighted, I would've thought the experience with the postor and the guest would be God's way of saying "Yes, being gay is wrong!". I just thank Him and testify His love, grace, and his wonderful ways of answering our prayers!
This has brought me closer to Him. I can truly call him "Father" and MEAN it and FEEL it in every cell! For the fincial problems I'm going through (I don't have anything in hand and in my bank account- except for a few cents in hand- which I thank God for), I know He'll provide for me. After all, He's Daddy!! :)
So why does the Bible talk about homosexuality as a sin? I don't know. But that doesn't matter. I've never felt this close to Daddy! :)
Brothers and sisters, those who're going through what I have and what others have, I would like you to know that God didn't create you for you to burn in hell. Go ahead, do your own research and trust your intuition- it never lies because God never lies!
Peace be with you and yours!