Arashmahar from the_embattled
Why am I here? It's not my fault. I really didn't have a choice, in the matter. D'Hoffryn brought me here after I visited Buffy and told her how out of control Willow was.
I guess since, the world was about to end, he wanted me safe, just in case, he needed me. I could have thanked him, for saving my life, but I didn't. I had no desire to thank him. I didn't want to be here. I could have saved Giles, if I was still in Sunnydale. He wouldn't be dead, right now. My Magic Shop is gone. My money is gone. I felt great sadness and anger.
I cried as I saw everything crumble. Dawn, Xander and Willow dying. Everything. D'Hoffryn opened a mirror portal so we could see what was going on. I think he wanted me to see what happened. I believe he was trying to break me.
I must add that D'Hoffryn was very disappointed that Willow was dead. "I had high hopes for Willow. She would have been great with us. But, I should have brought you out of there sooner. I didn't know that she was that powerful." If he was expecting me to say something, he was wrong. I said nothing.
From what I see, the world is still in one piece, less four people that meant something to me. I saw Buffy and Riley getting Giles out of the Magic Shop and looking for me. I also saw them going back to the bluffs to get Xander, Willow and Dawn.
I was shocked as I continued to watch. Xander turned out to be alive. I felt relieved. I turned to D'Hoffryn. "Well, the world is still here. You don't need me anymore, right? I think it's safe to say, I'm going to be ok, D'Hoffryn. Please." I didn't know why I even bothered. I was free to teleport out of here, but he would just come after me and bring me back here. But, now that everything is over, I think I'm free to go. What I said to him, was true. He doesn't need me here, anymore.
I heard Buffy telling Xander that they couldn't find me. He looked deeply concerned. "She must have teleported away Buff." No, beady eyes, I was taken by force.
"ANYA!" He called out to me. I looked at D'Hoffryn. I smiled and then teleported to Xander. I appeared before him, Buffy and Riley. I stood there in front of him and I was beginning to wonder if he was a figment of my imagination, or if he was real. "X-Xander. Is that really you?", I asked with tears gleaming in my eyes. Yes, I still loved him. I couldn't help it.
I felt excitement and sadness at the same time. Excitement, that he was alive. The sadness was for Giles, and Dawn, mostly. The sadness was the same sadness I felt for Joyce, last year. I felt sorry for Willow. But, that was the extent of any feelings I had for her, at this moment. All of these different emotions, I really never had to deal with are difficult. Sometimes, I do not know how to deal with them. When I was a full time vengeance demon, I didn't have emotion. I seeked vengeance for others and that was it. That was my job for a thousand years. So, I didn't know if I was wrong for feeling a certain way, or not.
This, right here, was different. I am different in many ways, because of this man standing in front of me. I knew my feelings for him weren't wrong.
((Xander, Buffy and Riley))
I guess since, the world was about to end, he wanted me safe, just in case, he needed me. I could have thanked him, for saving my life, but I didn't. I had no desire to thank him. I didn't want to be here. I could have saved Giles, if I was still in Sunnydale. He wouldn't be dead, right now. My Magic Shop is gone. My money is gone. I felt great sadness and anger.
I cried as I saw everything crumble. Dawn, Xander and Willow dying. Everything. D'Hoffryn opened a mirror portal so we could see what was going on. I think he wanted me to see what happened. I believe he was trying to break me.
I must add that D'Hoffryn was very disappointed that Willow was dead. "I had high hopes for Willow. She would have been great with us. But, I should have brought you out of there sooner. I didn't know that she was that powerful." If he was expecting me to say something, he was wrong. I said nothing.
From what I see, the world is still in one piece, less four people that meant something to me. I saw Buffy and Riley getting Giles out of the Magic Shop and looking for me. I also saw them going back to the bluffs to get Xander, Willow and Dawn.
I was shocked as I continued to watch. Xander turned out to be alive. I felt relieved. I turned to D'Hoffryn. "Well, the world is still here. You don't need me anymore, right? I think it's safe to say, I'm going to be ok, D'Hoffryn. Please." I didn't know why I even bothered. I was free to teleport out of here, but he would just come after me and bring me back here. But, now that everything is over, I think I'm free to go. What I said to him, was true. He doesn't need me here, anymore.
I heard Buffy telling Xander that they couldn't find me. He looked deeply concerned. "She must have teleported away Buff." No, beady eyes, I was taken by force.
"ANYA!" He called out to me. I looked at D'Hoffryn. I smiled and then teleported to Xander. I appeared before him, Buffy and Riley. I stood there in front of him and I was beginning to wonder if he was a figment of my imagination, or if he was real. "X-Xander. Is that really you?", I asked with tears gleaming in my eyes. Yes, I still loved him. I couldn't help it.
I felt excitement and sadness at the same time. Excitement, that he was alive. The sadness was for Giles, and Dawn, mostly. The sadness was the same sadness I felt for Joyce, last year. I felt sorry for Willow. But, that was the extent of any feelings I had for her, at this moment. All of these different emotions, I really never had to deal with are difficult. Sometimes, I do not know how to deal with them. When I was a full time vengeance demon, I didn't have emotion. I seeked vengeance for others and that was it. That was my job for a thousand years. So, I didn't know if I was wrong for feeling a certain way, or not.
This, right here, was different. I am different in many ways, because of this man standing in front of me. I knew my feelings for him weren't wrong.
((Xander, Buffy and Riley))