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Umm i'm bored and feel like updating.
today i woke up at like 9:30 because i woke up and i couldnt go back to sleep so i stayed awake because i'd sit and think about shit i didnt want to. so i woke up and painted some shit for my mom. it was fun i like painting. must be all my experiences with paint chips as a child. but n e ways i did a bnuch of other random chores for my mom cuz i needed money so i could buy the thrid season of south park so i'd have something to do because i dnt have friends. Later i went to watch my cousins in the wizard of oz at stagecrafters. i was pretty good. i think im going to be in scrooge this winter.
anywho i was thinking yesterday, that im often too nice. and sometimes i wish i was depressed again because instead of gettin hurt i hurt other people. thats prolly what put me in a depression in the first place. the fact that im always fucking shat on and i have no self-esteem. and u no what i think that i was actually more happy when sad. at least i new who i was. at least i new i was a fuckin dick. now i just pretend im not. i didnt have to worry about anyone but myself.
w/e fuck it in the ass im not a nice guy. and i dnt want to because nice guys get shat on.
today i woke up at like 9:30 because i woke up and i couldnt go back to sleep so i stayed awake because i'd sit and think about shit i didnt want to. so i woke up and painted some shit for my mom. it was fun i like painting. must be all my experiences with paint chips as a child. but n e ways i did a bnuch of other random chores for my mom cuz i needed money so i could buy the thrid season of south park so i'd have something to do because i dnt have friends. Later i went to watch my cousins in the wizard of oz at stagecrafters. i was pretty good. i think im going to be in scrooge this winter.
anywho i was thinking yesterday, that im often too nice. and sometimes i wish i was depressed again because instead of gettin hurt i hurt other people. thats prolly what put me in a depression in the first place. the fact that im always fucking shat on and i have no self-esteem. and u no what i think that i was actually more happy when sad. at least i new who i was. at least i new i was a fuckin dick. now i just pretend im not. i didnt have to worry about anyone but myself.
w/e fuck it in the ass im not a nice guy. and i dnt want to because nice guys get shat on.