call me a safe bet, im bettin im not

[vengeanceishell]

has anyone noticed that everythings different now. i miss how it was in like december. when me matt and mike chilled everyday and mike always had his panties in a bunch about whitney. and ian and kelly were happy as fuck and kelly wasnt gay yet. Me and matt were still flyin solo but had our fair share of encounters. haha matts a badass. I miss hunting raindeer. and getting chased for a block by a chaldean man. gettin drunk in ian's basement and jumping on the bed with andyrath. Mark making out with bruce for a half an hour. i miss it. i miss december, but most of all i miss my friends. This years flown by so fast i dnt even know where i am anymore. maybe the drugs. but everythings different know. good different tho and i wouldnt change a thing...

Not so long ago i was still at shirne i still remember it like it was a week ago. me and matt were fuckin around with shit. and fighting and breaking things. me and sam were friends but i always secretly liked her but she was too cool to care. roxanne pissed me off a lot last year i dnt know why. i think we just both grew too much. me and mark were tight but i always felt he wasnt as good of a friend as i was to him. eric was still trying to live up to his brothers names. which is sad because he'll never be them because he was always a better. hes not as good of an athlete but he has more heart than either of them. anyway i'm glad i'm not there i'd be alright if my parents had made me stay but i think i'd be happier.

i hate high school.

-derek