Jan 28, 2010 04:03
maybe i will post again. i plugged my computer in.
i need to start doing cardio. but seriously, it's so boring to do alone. then again, i'd probably feel like a retard doing it with another person or multiple persons. i don't like the lack of results from cardio. then again, i don't fucking do cardio. oh well.
there's really nothing on television at this hour. you know, television, there are people that stay up all night! have some consideration. i am sick and tired of infomercials. well, actually, that's not so true. i am just sick of the weight loss infomercials. those people are so pumped about their routine. they don't even look sweaty!! i mean, i don't sweat when i exercise either. but that's just because i am lazy.
so, yeah. what am i talking about? nothing really, i suppose. i am stressed, you know this. duh. who doesn't know? i don't know.
i am stressed the fuck out. i am stressed about my living situation. i am stressed about my potential living situation. you know, i just realized that people say "living situation" a lot. it's such a situation, you have no idea.
i am stressed about not having a running vehicle. i am stressed about having a sick vehicle in the parking lot, which has turned into a storage unit. i could get it inspected, but, still i wouldn't have the finances to fix it. it's not worth it.
i am stressed about this weight i have been gaining. though, this is the least of my problems.
i am stressed about money. who isn't? anyway. the point is that i have a lot of bullshit in my head.
i am fighting sleep at this point. one by one, i am starting to remove, from my mental to-do list, the things i had wanted to do tomorrow. i know that i will most likely sleep my day away. i will accomplish hardly anything i had planned to, if i accomplish anything at all. i am already the biggest procrastinator and the most lazy person that i know. we are our own worst critic? i don't know. that's probably true. no, it is. it's very true. i'm pretty sure that it's a fact. i'm pretty sure that's it's in the bible. actually, i never read the bible. i want to though. i should get on that before the world ends. it couldn't hurt. right? why not?
so, today i did something that i haven't been able to do in close to two years! i pulled my hair into a pony tail. it was a pathetic pony tail but it was a pony tail nevertheless. i almost forgot about the scalp aches and sensitivity pony tails leave you with. pony tails are so mean! they are abusive! what the shit did i ever do to you, pony tail?! pony tails are so convenient for me, seeing i have massive thick beast hair. but they can be and usually are the most boring hair style ever?? did that even makes sense. they are the anti hair style.
anyway! i am for really going to bed now. well, in a few minutes.
i want to go to a thrift store tomorrow. i know i won't. it sucks wanting to do things that you are too lazy to do. why bother wanting at all? i need to start sleeping like a regular person.
goodnight.